Writing down my journey..

Alright , I finished my chinese paper 1 and 2 today!~ Felt more relieved. Left 4 papers now , physics paper 2 , ss , chem paper 1 and physics paper 1. Alright. After 12 nov. I will be free liiaos. And i will try to get back the thing that i have lost. This time round , when i do my chinese o levels paper. I felt very different from the time that i have took it on may. I guess the reason was her. My mind is all filled with nothing but her. I couldnt concentrate when i was doing my compo. Everyday , I look at the letters that u gave me. I am starting to memorise bit by bit of it in my heart. Tear drops are inevitable. U wrote me so many letters , yet i only replied some back to you. I regretted for taking u for granted. You know its not easy for me to forget our past and u know too. Its already the 93th day that we have break. And its also ur 88th day that u guys have been together. I guess u guys must be celebrating now. Every night , I will think about you. And i tear every night. The

Alright. Had 3 papers today and now i left 7 more papers!~ Actually after next mon , i will be very very relaxed le.. Cos next mon is social studies which is the subject that i have never passed before in this 2 years time. Alright. Today's english compo was quite okay. Just that english compre was hard. But i still hope i will not break record for my tuition and at least get a B3. Cos no one have attained a grade of less than B3 when my tuition teacher teaches them. But , me and zhi wei might be the record breaker. Lols.. But still hope for a B3.. =X Went around during lunch break which is around 1 and a half hour. went to kfc first but no stock. Then decided to go to the coffeeshop and take away and bring it to the school canteen to eat. Then later had e maths paper 1. For the first few questions , my mind was like stuck... Then i couldnt think much. But as i do and do , it got better. I find today's paper was quite alright. Hope to have an A1 =D. Tmr will be E maths paper 2

Alright.. I am so dead now.. Feeling sick.. Sian 1/2. Feeling sick at this period??? Its O levels!~ And i am like half dead? Oh my.. Hais.. Hope that i will recover tomorrow ba.. Or else.. i think ho seh liao.. Alright. It will be the first humanities exam tml.. And its history.. I hope the topics that i studied will come out for both SBQ and SEQ. Hoping for the best. Hitler? Chamberlain? Lenin? Stalin? Gorbachev? Sun yat sen? Mao Zedong? Oh my.. This pple are giving me headache... Hais.. But still.. have to memorise in order to do well. Alright.. Gonna go study somemore le.. All the best to others who are taking History tml!~ I am willing to sacrifice anything just for you. As day by day pass by , we are separated further and further apart. Perhaps u have forgotten me and also our past. But , i hasnt. You will always have a place in my heart , Nicole. Because of my stupidity , i lost someone that is very important to me.

Alright. Had Chem paper 2 today. It was quite alright.. But most of my friends said that it was easy.. So lets see lo.. Will be having a day break tml cos no paper. But on friday , i will be having history. So.. i really have to do well cos Tourism needs humanities! So.. just hope for the best that the topic i am studying will come out. Erm.. how i wish o levels will be over tml... So that.. i can start to do things that i wan to do! Hais... Alright.. gonna go study history liao.. =D Humans only start to cherish things when they are gone. And when its gone , it will never come back again. If not for this break , i would not have realised how much i really love you. And also.. to think back about the mistakes that i did to hurt u. I realised everything now. But its all too late Bcos. we will never be able to be together again. After so many times i hurt u , U didnt groan or shout at me. Instead , u swallow it all yourself. Until.. u was really sick of me , And u found someone new. My pl

Alright. Wasnt in the mood to study now. So just come and blog lo.. Today was a maths paper 2. and it will be my last time doing a maths le. But.. i think i flunk it.. cos i thought back and i really did some careless workings.. Hais.. just hoping for the best lo.. *cross my fingers* Tomorrow will be chemistry paper 2. And i am not very confident.. Cos.. i never touch chemistry for a week le.. Horrible rite. heh. Hais.. i want to study.. But whenever i do.. Alot of memories flooded through my mind. I guess I will never forget her.. I thought time will heal. But looks like it hasnt.. I will never forget the day 23 may 2006. and also.. will never ever forget u , nicole. I know i hurt you several times. which i should not have. As actually i should protect u from being hurt.. Instead of hurting u... I realised my mistake already.. But its all too late. I know u are leading a happy life now. I could only watch u from the side.. Looking how happy u are. But not sharing the happy times with

Alright. I have not been blogging very long le.. So dear diary , i am back again!~ Many things happened this few weeks. Firstly , i got into habbosoup ( an official fansite in habbo ) as a DJ on 10th October. I know u guys feel that habbo is a lame and boring game. But.. its the only game which i can multi task. and i am also able to dj too. But does other games do? Perhaps maybe? Anyway.. I am very happy to be a Habbosoup DJ as it really can improve my speech and also in some other ways.. Alright. and.. two more days will be O levels de a maths paper 1 liao.. So.. i am studying more nowadays le.. And hope i will get at least an A? Erm... I guess i dun have much things to say le.. Feeling very emo now.. Everyday , Every night , I am missing you. Whenever i am alone , our memories inundated through my mind. Even now , i still couldnt have a nice sleep. I am always wondering how ur life is now. I still Love you. I really Miss you. I should have cherished you when u were beside me.. But i

Okay... So long never blog le.. And nothing to do.. So.. Blog Blog Blog!~ Er.. Dunno why.. Nowadays.. went back to play WWE cards again.. I played that since i was pri 5 and played till sec 1. So long never touched le.. Then now suddenly touch again... Abit weird lo.. But still enjoy playing it XDD. School are boring... And finally.. I was late for the first time in these 4 years today!~ Oh man... So sad... Cannot keep record liao.. 21 more days to 'O' levels.. Scared... And yet.. I am still playing habbo these few days.. So slack.. Okay lo.. Waiting for chalet result on this coming wednesday.. Hope will be chosen ba.. Okay.. nothing more to blog le.. Gonna go study le.. Sayonara!~ You will always be in my heart. I Love you.

Okay.. Feeling so bored now.. So come and blog.. Feeling so down.. L1R5 got 27 leh.. Its like oh my god?!?!?! I wonder how can i go tourism course in this way.. OMG man.. even L1B4 only got 22 lo.. Take what.. Nursing course ar.. Haiz... Dunno what to do.. I know i must study!~ But like always no mood leh.. Sad... Sian.. Still have to go to school tml.. If Ken Kor today give back Physics MCQ.. I dun think i will be going school tml luh... Less than 1 month to O levels.. And i am still like.. Happy-go-lucky.. Dunno why my chiong mood not there liao.. Sian.. Okay.. Submit Chalet de application form yesterday le.. Will know the results next wednesday.. Wonder if can make it or not.. If cant.. then sian 1/2 liao.. Okay.. gonna go rest liao.. so giddy today.. I am already happy enough to have u for 434 days... I dun ask for more.. Somemore.. What can i do? You was just beside me.. Yet... it feels like we are separated a few worlds apart..

Okay.. Very long never blog le.. Waiting for soccer match.. Nothing to do now.. So come blog lo.. Manchester United VS Chelsea Kinda big match.. Sure that Man U will win!~ They rox!! Ahaha.. Okay.. few days ago went to watch 881 with shuyu and lay kheng at AMK hub. The movie got too many hokkien songs.. I dun understand most of the songs.. So.. yea.. rate 5/10 ba.. The story is also not that realistic.. Heh... But.. ya.. overall.. its okay.. Okay.. left less than a month for O levels.. Dunno why i am still slacking.. Haiz.. I am so tired now.. Only slept 5 hours yesterday... Slept at 2. woke up at 7.. Got to go Tzu Chi de teenage class.. Once every month.. So yea.. Was dam tired.. But no choice.. had to go.. Coz its the last lesson.. And going excursion today.. Went to a laundry factory in woodlands.. To learn about the process of those laundry.. Ya.. then know how to huan bao.. Heh.. Cock all the way when coming back.. When the class finish.. Its about 2.30 already.. Oh gosh.. I sti

Okay... Its 11 plus now.. Kinda early.. But feeling so tired already.. Feeling sick.. Erm.. Okay.. A Maths paper 2 was tough today for me.. So not hoping for good grade ba.. Just keeping my fingers cross!~ Glad that is over already.. Now is really focus directly on 'O' levels le.. 2 days ago.. ran back to habbo to see see.. Then found out that i am addicted again.. Oh gosh!~ I know alot pple feel it is a lame game that is clicking here and there.. But once u have the fame and money in a game.. Its really hard to quit.. But... Nvm... I am trying to control.. 2 more months till o levels finish ba... Waiting for 12 NOV... After that.. I will be really free.. And i will try to get back something that is important to me that i have lost it 2 months ago.. Okay.. Nothing to do liao.. I think i am going to bed soon. And yea.. I am skipping school tml!~ Good nite =D Bye!~ My life will never be complete without you.. But i would rather stand at the side to see you smiling than to see you

Oh my!~ I love my current first blog song! But sadly.. i couldnt find it in CD shops.. Maybe try looking in other CD shops next time ba.. Okay.. Life is so boring nowadays. Only STUDY! STUDY! STUDY! Oh my god.. Only 37 days LEFT to O levels .. Oh gosh.. How i wish a 1 will be added in front. No use regretting ba.. Just study as much as i can now.. Life is so miserable without 18 jin bu jin. I love that show... Director of 18 jin bu jin. Can film some more episodes?? Okay.. i am so lame nowadays.. Thats what shuyu told me.. I guess I am.. Erm.. Having A Maths Paper 1 tomorrow.. Good thing is.. it starts at 11am. So i have time to sleep!~ Yay!!! Okay.. will be having chemistry tuition after that tomorrow.. Okay.. gonna go study liao.. Bye!~ Half of my daytime is spent in thinking of you... I regretted for not treasuring u... And its already all too late now...

Okay... All of a sudden..feeling Depressed now. Thinking of her again.. Haiz... I guess she will always be on my mind.. Okay.. Had E Maths Paper 2 and History paper today.. Quite tiring.. I guess i gonna flunk my E maths paper 2.. Skipped alot questions coz i didnt had enough time to think.. After doing E maths paper 2... I am already very tired and still has to take history paper later on.. Furthermore.. i studied 3 chapters for history... And none of the chapter came out for SEQ.. But instead came out at SBQ... I was feeling like so hopeless... I thought i was dreaming.. Its like.. its prelim.. and i couldnt do for SEQ... So i have to focus fully on my SBQ.. And i did SBQ for 1 hour... And 15 mins for each essay to bull things around.. At least something to show that i make an effort to think and try.. Haiz... Think i am not going to do well for this prelim ba.. Okay.. 2 more subjects to go.. Chemistry and A Maths!~ Woohoo!~ I love Chemistry!!! Lolz.. Okay.. today i am on study leave

Okay.. i am dead beat now.. Dunno why.. The physics paper was tough today... Dun hope for quite a high score.. Haiz.. But.. will keep my finger cross and hope for the best.. Then went to play WWE cards with gabriel and jing jie after the exam... Sadly.. i lost.. Then wanted to play basketball.. But by the time we reach the court to join our friends... Mr Quek happened to pass by.. and blow his whistle.. *Pi-Pi* Then disallow us to play... haiz.. Then found a soccer ball at the side.. So played soccer instead.. Very long never play liao.. I get exhausted easily... So went home and knockout on the bed.. And i am still tired now.. No energy to study... Haiz.. Sian... Okay.. nth much to do.. Chao!~ I MISS MY 18 JIN BU JIN!~ 是为了要证明我为了你存在的意义。

Okay... Had E maths paper and Social studies paper yesterday.. For our whitley school , i feel that the E maths paper is kinda tough... Social Studies was easy actually.. But i didnt had enough time to finish all of the questions.. So 5 marks gone liao... Nvm.. 45/50 is a good score too XD. Okay... then went toa payoh central with jing han coz he wanna buy shirt for his aunt. Then bought lunch and went home.. Wanted to play table tennis with jing han actually.. But was too tired... and dozed off in the afternoon.. Watched 18 jin bu jin ep 20 when i woke up... So sad... last ep le... Sian.. Okay.. then studied with jing han at night then play com games.. Then go zZzZzZzZzZz liao.. Okay... woke up at 10 plus today... Then watch zhong ji yi jia ep 24... Then play some games first then study... Okay.. tomorrow have Physics paper 1 and 2.. Gonna go study liao.. Chao!~ 想念 互道晚安的每天 卻又捨不得說再見

Okay... Didnt did much today... Play and study at the same time this afternoon.. Then watch 18 jin bu jin ep 19.. So sad... 18 jin bu jin only got 20 eps... haiz... Okay.. then studied at night.. studied for 3 hours... okay.. gonna go sleep liao... tml still got school.. E MATHS PAPER 1!~ AND SOCIAL STUDIES PAPER!~ HERE I COME!!!!!!!! 飞过城市的边缘 降落爱你的终点

Okay... wanted to blog last night.. But.. was busy studying.. so... yea.. Erm.. Yesterday... Studied in the afternoon for around 2hours then my hands went itchy and went to play games. Then went for english tuition... Didnt have the right mood coz english prelim is over.. So.. preparing for O levels now.. Okay.. then jing han came my house to study at night... studied for 3 hours. Then watch 18 jin bu jin and play games.. Played till 4.30 then wanted to sleep liao.. But.. couldnt sleep... So we played WWE cards.. play till 6am.. Okay.. i know its kinda weird.. But seldom i can play till so shiok liao.. Then i couldnt wake up at 9 to catch my favourite survivor.. Woke up at 11 instead.. Then we played WWE cards again... Lolz.. Then ate breakfast.. Then he went home to bathe and get ready to meet mr ow yong at mac at 1pm. so yea... was quite tired... but.. i am happy coz seldom play till so late liao.. Then went to meet shuyu , yi mei and lay kheng at mac to request help from ow yong .

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Okay... Have physics lesson at 9am. So.. woke up at 7.30.. Then met jing han , teerapot and gordon at the mac.. Actually me , jing han and teerapot meeting our tuition teacher , adrain teh , to pay him the fees for next month tuition. But met gordon at mac. Woohoo!~ Adrain teh treat us breakfast too XD. Lolz.. free breakfast!~ There is no free lunch in this world but free breakfast!~ Okay.. it sounds lame... Okay. ate till 9.15. Then thought we were late.. So went rushing to school... But.. when we reach the i hub.. mr kor just came. Woohoo!!~ Just nice! Okay.. glad that i learnt some things =D. Then went to play pool with jing jie after that.. Then went to makan then went back le XD. So.. werent in the mood to study yet.. SO need some mood apetizer. Watched the X family ep 21. Then played some online games. Then watch tv.. Then makan dinner.. Then study le.. Felt so unproductive today.. Alamak.. Dunno why... Have the sudden urge to play WWE cards now.. Lolz.. okay.. gonna go watch

Okay... Didnt did much today.. Woke up at 9... Then catch X family ep 20. Then watch 18 jin bu jin. After watching... Its already... 12noon! And... Its time for Tuition! Okay... went tuition alone coz jing han had bio before this... Today's tuition is like so packed.. Dunno why.. Erm.. After tuition.. wanted to play pool. But dunno why the counter person say i am not 16 yet so cant go in. Its like.. Hello??.. i went in last saturday.. I tried to argue.. but to no avail. So went home instead.. Okay... gonna go study physics liao. Bye!~ 问世间 情是何处。

Okay.. Nothing much today... Boring day... Woke up at 10 plus.. Watch X family ep 19. Then study lo... Studied from 12 plus till 9 plus.. Including lunch and dinner break lo... Okay... Now is my video time le!~ Not porn okay.. Those Chinese drama de show.. Okay... I am off!~ Bye!~ P.S : Shuyu dun be unhappy over such small matters. Cheer up!!~ When things happens , happened for a reason...

Okay... Not in the mood to study today.. Dunno why... I guess should be the rain that made me so sleepy.. *Yawn*... Actually planning what to do already.. But i dunno what to study... So boring... Okay... Just had a good sleep... Going back to study now =D 无法开口

Okay... Went out to have breakfast with my family in the morning. Then didnt study... So slack.. Left 51 days only.. I only thought of that when Jing han messaged me and asked me how many days left to O levels.. Okay... Going for Ultimate chiong starting tomorrow.. I know it will be very tiring... But i will never give up.. Then some tzu shao came my house to practice shou yu at 2pm. Went out for tuition at 3.40. I found out that my tuition teacher earn alot of money betting on soccer. Like around 200 plus per week. Then went to ate with Jing han and Sheryl at KFC for dinner. Then found out that Jing han got conned for buying a 1GB memory card for 80 dollars at Starhub shop. And we were like... WTF??? 80 bucks can buy a 2GB memory card at other place lo.. Ya... then went to the shop to ask.. And the worker there was talking nonsense... He said that Sony Memory card for Sony phone is better... He must be thinking we are just some stupid kids that doesnt know the market price.. But he i

Okay. I am freaking tired now.. Went out with my primary school mates today. Its like we havent been seeing each other for quite a long time arleady. Then finally there is a reunion today! YAY!~ And 16 pple came to watch movie but after the movie.. 6 people left... So just nice... left perfect 10. Okay.. First , i met zheng rui at toa payoh mrt station there at around 1.30. Actually we agreed on 1.20.. but i was late. PAI SEH. Actually wanna go withdraw money first coz only left 30 bucks in my wallet. I scared not enough... But in the end forgot to withdraw... And somemore... Zheng rui is already waiting for a couple of mins for me already.. So dun wanna make him wait any longer.. coz i am not a gal anyway... Erm.. So yea... we headed down to Orchard.. And our destination was cineleisure.. Then we were thinking... Erm.. isnt it should be meet at somerset coz nearer? But coz we told everyone to meet at orchard already.. So yea... stick to the plan lo. When we reach orchard , it is just

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Yay!~ Its the last day of this semester today! Finally can have a week to chiong my studies without going to school XD. ACES day is dam sian... The Teacher's day celebration was kinda interesting and entertaining. Nothing much lo... Got back PPR. Had 3 Distinctions , Two B3s.. , one C6 and one E8. I got E8 for my combined humanities... So sad... Gonna work extreme hard if i wan to get into tourism course liao.. After school , meet shuyu , yimei , lay kheng and jing han to buy a shirt for mr ow yong . Then later went to eat at kfc... So suay lo..Saw a bitch with her friends at toa payoh central.. Then shuyu , lay kheng and jing han came my house to play mahjong. Shuyu didnt know how to play. So we taught her... and she managed to game one round =D. Sadly... Lay kheng didnt managed to game any round. =( Played till 5pm then they went off le... I am so tired now... Wanna sleep liao... Bye!~ 未来却不能因此安排

Had Chinese Prelim Exam today. It was kinda hard to me.. I mean the entire paper was really hard.. But... just hope for the best lo... Then did some " hand exercise ". Played the stupid bottle cap battle with Jing Han , Marcus , Ben , Gordon and Deepak in class. Play until my hand muscle dam pain lo... Then after that is " leg exercise " Played soccer at Jing han house downstairs with the same people.. Drank the WANG-ZAI milk before playing... It was kinda nice.. I injured my own knee again.. But it was a sight injury... My knee still quite pain now.. After that , my mum ask me go central.. she want help me sign a atm card. Woohoo!~!~!~ Finally have my own atm card le.. XD Went home after that... What a tiring day... no mood to study liao.. i think left 54 days more to O Levels ba... AND i am not even fully prepared yet.. Haiz... 你是我生命的源动力

Yes!~ English Prelim is over! Woohoo... I couldnt sleep well last night.. as i was thinking about this stupid English Prelim... I think i flunk it already... I spent around like 30 mins juz to PLAN the section 1 compo. And after i finish my section 1 compo , I left 30 mins to do the section 2... I was like WTF?!?!?!.. Summary was also quite tough.. haiz.. dun expect much this time.. Speaking of reitaliation , no one can win u.... I dunno why i keep thinking of you...

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Okay. Didnt go to school today. Did not want to.. nothing much to do in school. Revising english at home today... Quite bored... Argh!~ I shall just bear with it for these 2 months. and everything will be fine XD. Zhong Ji Yi Jia. The X-Family ROCKS! Anyone got watch? Anyone knows which poly teaches tourism course the best? I dun ask for much , i just want you to stay beside me. Because... u are my only hope left..

You have changed. You are no longer the person that i know.. Last time , i also had this immature thinking.. Thinking that if breaking up would make ur life better. Coz i know i didnt give much joy to u. But u was the one that told me.. even how hard the life will be with me.. You will not regret choosing me. You told me i was the only one u wanted. But i know times has changed. You are wooed by so many guys.. And u cant resist to flirt with them.. I know what is happening... I closed one eye and open another. When we break , u told me that u just wanted to PAUSE.... until my ' O ' levels is over. I agreed... and u swear that thats the only cause of pausing.. but after 5 days.. ur heart is no longer mine already... Dun u think u are so contradicting? If u did not really love me , u should have let go last year already. I know u are just using me as a chess. You will never know how to love unless u give...

Went to school just to take the stupid chinese spelling. or else i wouldnt be bothered to go to school.. as i will be sleeping or slacking in class.. But going to school today is also quite a fruitful trip... Got back English PPR marks.. got a B3... I top in band 4 okay...( with xingzi getting the same score too ) only 2 B3 in class. =D something to boast about... coz i will have something good for my tuition to feel proud about XD. I know its just a PPR and not many pple give a dam.. But for me.. being the top... boost my morale and confidence for the english paper on this coming wed. Got back chinese test marks too... i got 34/50. I know its not a good score... But the highest is only 37 and the second is 34.. If i could get 37... i will be on clouds nine!~ coz both of my languages will be top in class.. which i haven experience before.. I nearly did it... but... NEARLY only... Erm.. thinking of it.. my english really did improve... I was copying my friends english assignment last y

Woke up at 9 today.. to catch Survivor Fiji =D.. Then watched other channel 8 shows till 11pm... Then realised that i have english tuition at 12 noon... Went to bathe... left home at 11.30... I know i will be late... coz i still have to photocopy some notes that Raina lent me.. I really appreciate the notes that she lent me.. coz seldom.. people from those good schools.. are willing to lend their notes away... and somemore... she even tutor me... I appreciate it.. Thanks!~ Went to makan after tuition then go home coz no where to go.. Wanted to stay out for a little while more coz i still have tuition at 4.30.. But went home coz nth to do... Online for awhile then meet Jing han to go tuition le lo... Marcus and Jia wen quarrelled during tuition today... Longlasting couples always quarrel.. so that they will know the importance of their partner... But for my case... she dun give a dam. Then took train with Jing han , Marcus , Edwin and Sheryl . then saw a gal that wore the same co

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Okay... Wasnt that productive today... Woke up at 9am as usual to catch SURVIVOR!~ I did a research and found out that Survivor 15 , china will be showing on 20 sept in America.. So i think it would be showcase in singapore around that date... Awaiting for that day =D I missed survivor really alot.. Then watch zhong ji yi jia ep 13 posted on the web... Then went out to meet shuyu , yi mei and jing han to study. Did some maths questions then switch to do chem... Ow yong came at around 2.30.. I didnt do much maths questions these days so did not have questions to ask him.. coz my main focus is to do well for my english and humanities now.. U guys must be shocked why i suddenly want to do well in humanities ba.. coz i want to take the tourism course in poly and combined humanities must be included inside. and to be able to qualify , i have to hit a single digit for my L1B4.. I think the cut off point is 10 for most polys ba.. Haiz.. so gonna work hard... Studied till 6pm then walk tgt

Okay... feeling so tired now... dunno why too... Didnt go to school =D Yesterday dinner was SO So so full..... My stomach nearly explode.... Even jing han ate more than i do... Its so not fair lo... I eat not that much but my size keep expanding whereas when other pple eat , they still cant gain much weight... Argh!~ Saw a few 10/10s at the hotel there... most of them were ang mohs.. Woohoo!~ But couldnt get there phone number =X I was so full and drunk and tired yesterday.. that the moment when i reach home and finish bathing... I drop dead on my bed...till this morning... Okay... i gonna go study liao... Jia you everyone =D 5 more days to PRELIM!~ 59 more days to O LEVELS!~ Because of you... i gave up my studies for a period.. Ask yourself , is he able to give up his studies just for you?

Okay... went to school today coz got PE!!~ Hehe... But only get to play soccer for like 10 mins during PE... Didnt played that well... Haiz.. ever since i injured my knee... I did not dare to play that aggressive liao and also couldnt produce that many goals... Had our A maths test paper returned... I score quite badly... I wanted an A1 but could only achieve an A2.. I think i have to work extra harder... Ate alot during recess today... If i keep on eating... i think i am gonna be like gabriel already... Assembly was kinda interesting today. A singaporean that is the head of the disney came our school to teach us some techniques on drawing. and i feel that with just simple drawings.. we can make nice pieces... Played soccer after school... It was like decades that we play soccer together after school lessons in the school field... i think 17-19 pple were in the field... More than half are from our class.. So unfortunately , we had to sacrifice jarrod and gabriel to the E1s... Our cla

Didnt go school today... Yi mei also didnt go.... We paka dun go de coz we feel that going school arent effective. coz i feel that maybe self study at home is better.. Yea.. it was better... I can learn more and also i dun feel that tired... Jarrod messaged me why i didnt go school. I am so touched. although he always make fun of me in class. This shows who are really my true friends that care for me. I told Jing Han i would not be coming so he didnt message me. I woke up at 8 plus then watch the channel 8 morning news show. It was about the discussion of whether it is effective using modern music to teach chinese. They also showcase Anderson and Jurong JC school environment and culture. Then started studying social studies at 10. Studied till 12 plus then yi mei came my house to study too. Then she study physics while i continue studying my ss. Then at 2. I was asking yi mei if shuyu will call her then after 1 sec , she called her. Lolz... so qiao lo. They said they just releas

Went to school as usual lo... I feel that it is meaningless to go to school nowadays... Half-awake during social studies lesson. Chatting and playing during maths lesson. Next week is prelim and haven settle down for the right mood... Haiz... Something happened during ENGREEESSSH Lesson today! I was talking with chung kai about our social studies marks in mandrain. then that mrs singh/miss kaur thot he is scolding profanities. Then here goes the story... Mrs Singh : "Who is scolding vulgarities?!?!?!" *everyone kept quiet* Then she look at chung kai coz chung kai and i was talking in mandrain and she doesnt even understand a word so she thought he was scolding profanities. Then mrs singh ACCUSED chung kai ... Then chung kai got irritated... So here goes the conversation.. (Kids under 13 years old are advised not to see the content below coz it contains profanities.) Chung Kai : " I didnt scold vulgarities! " Chung Kai : " Ur ear got problem is it?? &qu

Wah... so tired today... think is coz yesterday 12 plus then sleep... I am not used to sleeping late but trying to.. coz prelim and o levels drewing nearer le.. need to study till late coz i started my revision quite late... Went to school as usual lo... It was kinda fun and lame during chem lesson.. Had quiz during chem lesson.. it was battle of the sexes... Although we won , but also no prize... I did fairly well in the e maths common test. At least got an A1 coz i studied for 2-3 hours. But there is still rooms for improvement =D. Went to the CC near our school to study with shuyu and yimei . Did an A maths paper... At least learnt somethings =D.. Then ate with them at KFC then went home with bus 235 lo... I think that the night study isnt that effective for me... maybe study alone at night will be better =D. My life is like so sian... everyday have to study... Haiz.... 2 more months... I shall bear with it!~ Jia you! Does the word 'FOREVER' exists?

Okay. Another boring day... Woke up at 9 to catch the hsow Survivor Fiji Replay. Had Maths tuition from 11 plus till 2 plus. Online awhile then some of my tzu chi friends came my house for dunno what gathering to celebrate that they emerge first in the shouyu competition. Congrats to all of them!~ Couldnt join in the fun coz gonna go for tuition. Wanted to skip actually XD. Heard that Melwin and Leonita had a quarrel due to some misunderstandings. Hope they will patch up. Lolz.. sound so wrong... It was kinda fun during Chemistry lesson =D Guessing the answer and check it with the teacher's answer key. which we are not supposed to... But he is 80% away from the class. So we had lots of chances guessing the answer =X Went home after tuition... Watching soccer match now. Sian... Man U losing 1 goal now... Hope they can turn the table around... Okay... feeling the pressure now... 2 more months to the big 'O'!!! Jia you everyone! I am starting to move on...

First I was afraid I was petrified Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong I grew strong I learned how to carry on It took all the strength I had not to fall apart kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart and I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry Now I hold my head up high and you see me somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me

Okay , woke up in the morning at 8 plus then went to toa payoh hub to meet Raina. Then headed to the mac near tpy library to study with her... Or maybe she tutor me? Lolz... I am kinda weak in my studies so asked help from her.. Studied with her for 3 hours coz she got to meet her friend for lunch then heading back home. Although the study time was kinda short but i did learn many things =D Thanks Raina ! =D Then meet shuyu and yimei to study after that at the same place... Jing han came 1 hour later coz he got soccer match. Ow yong came at 3 plus to attend to those maths questions that we need help.. Felt tired at 3pm already... cant really do much after that... Then studied chem instead... Then finish studying at 6pm. Then we head towards toa payoh hub coz shuyu meeting lay kheng to go to Leonita birthday party. Heard that she only call our class girls but i bet that she will ask Melwin along too. Heh. =P. Took 235 home then jing han , shuyu and lay kheng took 231. Nothing

I realise how much time i have wasted... I should look forward and not look back to the past. After all , she also dun give a dam. A NEW Alex is born on 17/8/07. Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today =D She changed my life. She gave me hope.

U wanna compare pathetic? 6 times broken with u , Did i changed my feelings for you? Did i fall for someone instead? In the end we still patched up. How about u? Which longlasting couple didnt break up before? Ask yourself , do u really love him? Is our love so brittle as compared to u and him? All u takes was 5 days? If u had taken 1 or 2 months , i can understand. But look , 5 days... Do u really know what is love? To love somone is to contribute and not wanting to gain back anything. But i think the only thing u want is happiness. Nvm , since u really love the situation now , I still wishes both of u all the best. Even though i didnt want to. You think i am better now? When i am alone , i am feeling miserable. u dun understand coz i didnt did so much pain to you before by just having a replacement FIVE days later. This blog was created coz i promised to you that i will create one. How about those promises u made?

Nothing much today... Went to school as usual lo... Couldnt go for PE lesson coz of the rain outside... Argh.... Lessons today were boring... Double Maths , Double Chem , Single Chinese and Double English... Slept during english lesson coz cant talk , rather sleep than listen to her chanting.. Still have tuition later on.... Felt so pathetic... 我们的爱 ， 过了就不再会来。 I regret...

Okay.. its o level english oral today!! and i successfully got over it! Oh Man.. i cant speak english that well but i did tried my best. I think i did kinda alright. I was satisfied for my performance , i rate 7/10 for myself. =D Three questions were thrown to me during the conversation -Tell me about the competition that u had taken part before. -Do u prefer to take part in individual competition or in a team competition? -Do u think winning is the most important in a competition? English oral cleared!!!! Now have to worry about the written papers which is in 2 months time. Jia You! Something funny happened today! While we were playing a ball ( kinda small) dunno whats that~ then when i throw to kenji and he miskicked it! Then , we heard a 'zip' sound... Oh my god!! Jenji's pant was torn. somewhere at his thigh... Felt sorry and guilty coz i was the one that threw the ball.. Sorry Kenji!! I knew that day will come , it was just a matter of time , i knew i was just a tempor

Went to school as usual in the morning. Half listening and half sleeping during history lesson. Got back physics common test result and it was horrid!! Gonna buck up on my physics!!! Chemistry was also no where better too. We had chemistry common test today and had the review straight away after the test. Its like.. so fast??? Did better for chemistry but wasnt satisfied... Gonna study more!!! Feeling more stress as the prelims and the big O exams are coming. Oh my.. haven even started revising on my humanities... Haiz... feeling like so unproductive... My grades are still quite a distance away from my target. Left 2 months... it is still possible??? Its about what u do and not what u say it still hurts and u dun even give a dam.

Here is the first post! =D This blog is born on 14th August 2007! Some things are left unsaid. Alot of my feelings are kept secret. Just dun wanna affect people around me. And these feelings will always be secret. Coz u will never know how i feel. I have no choice. But to swallow all the pain. It really hurts. and its all because of you..