Writing down my journey..

On the last day of may, I wish my next year's may get better. Love batam sunset. Looking at my schedule, it is as if I am on a "marathon run". Still trying to fix it well, like at least a few hours to get down to the town with friends. Oh well, I guess my friends are blaming me hard right now for rejecting their invitations to hang out here and there. Just hope that they understand. I didnt see year 3 coming on fiercely until today then i realise how quick and little time we have for the pile of assignments dropping in. Well, its my time to see how good i am with my management of time. I believe something, if one can manage its time and emotions well, one then can able to manage and lead others. Yes i believe in myself, and i see myself as a future leader, but of course there are many things for me to learn. Although it has been emotional for the past 2 weeks, but i did had some fun. Here are some good may memories: Engaged myself with another internet radio as a DJ intia

If everything goes right, whats the purpose of life? Being someone who is particularly weight conscious but loves to eat and also cares alot on what people think of me, this is contradicting. Hearing comments that I have put on weight, in fact the real comments were "fatter", from my family, friends who i know and even schoolmates who i dont know. This is time for me to reflect on my alex diet diet list and stop eating what that contains alot those nonsense and of course got to start exercise. I need to prepare for napfa, ns and also a nice body that i am proud to walk with on the beach. This will be good to keep myself busier on top of my hectic schedule, making sure that i stop looking back at my past. Having a plan always sounds good, got to act now!

The story used to have 2 people enjoying a car ride, it vanished, just like this. It is really amazing how much one's history can be such an impact. I belittled the affection i have for her, I took the courage to check out her online diary, Just the top few is already good enough for me to stop viewing it. Yes i am not coping well, but I want to manage my emotions well. I am selfish, I am jealous when I dont get things I want. The worse thing was a call came from classmate on that very time asking on project, you just feel like telling the person off, "I am not in a good mood, can we talk tomorrow." But there are things that we always say, "forget about it, life goes on." I doesn't seem to love myself, I still don't know myself well. I got to overcome my feelings, then i will be able to overcome myself. So then will I be qualified to learn how to love someone, starting from myself. Those words came out too late, had it been just a year earlier, things ma

So close yet so far. Some things, we thought we have it. But.. did we? Today was.. WOW, really good. Out with the Mediacorp crew on a trip the whole day to batam for shoots on an investment show call "Cents & Sensibilities" particularly on Beachfront Property, whether people should invest on beachfront property. Had a really long day, travel here and there, there and here. The glazing sun was kind to us today, and glad there was no rain as we needed the shots and sunset. Also, this is the first ever time that I got on to the ground of Batam island! Particularly, I got to say this, we were treated really good, really well. First, we got to enjoy this VIP lounge at the Ferry Terminal before boarding, also we had a private yacht that is very well furnished and i was awed by it. We had great lunch and dinner, really good food. There was a chaffeur that was with us the whole day, driving us around and etc. Listening to all these, the most amazing thing and you may want to look

Able to bid good night to someone whom you care for, does really feel good. Able to hear a good night from someone is a blessing particularly from someone who means a lot to you. That has been really long since i heard that from you, Good Night :)

Appreciate those little things in life, Be grateful when you are enjoying your life, Cherish those people around you, because when these things are gone, they really do... 23 May, not a date that I am looking forward alone. No matter what I do, there doesnt seem to be a way to get out of this. It isnt that I am not trying hard enough, maybe it is but I have been changing different strategies when one doesnt work, but still it is back to square one. One word to describe me is pathetic. I feel so lousy suddenly. Sigh. There are so many things that I want to tell her about. You told her that you are doing fine when you are not at all. How fake is this? She was waiting for more messages but you decided to retreat just because you think you would mess up her life. You wrote a letter for her but why did you kept it in your old cabinet when you know you have so many things to say to her. You said you will draw a line to this ever by avoiding but still surrendered on this very day. You tried g

Different seasons at the same time. Gotten a haircut just yesterday, had a new fresh look. It is very short, bearly bald. But i could enjoy the breeze fully when the wind blows. Just that, i will take sometime to adapt to it, haha. I find it weird after the haircut and even had a bad dream last night about it (Yes i do care about my appearance alot, thats my weakness). But it was otherwise today when people saying that it was nice. I appreciate that ;) Today is certainly a good day, well spent. *pat on the back* School till 12. Mediacorp from 1 to 5. Squash from 6 to 9.30. Was given a good opportunity, being called upon to travel to Batam on shooting for Mediacorp CNA shows next tuesday. It will take up the whole day, so skipping school is inevitable. Just that.. I got to submit 2 ICAs by that date, lucky it was a submission rather than a test. So i guess.. I AM GOING! :D

Behind every sad occasion, every bad feeling, behind every tear streaming down your cheek, there is something nice, something perfect... Its hope. Nobody is perfect, and its useless pretend to be, but there are people who see you as if you were, its the people who love you. With their help, and by helping them, you can become flawless. As a rainbow, If you really believe, You can everything -------------------------------------------------------- As we grow older, we start to take up more responsibilities. My 18 year old journey seems to be more hectic than enjoyable, but still its both, i enjoy what I have been doing lately. Academically , I am doing fine i guess. Although suffered a 0.02 drop on my GPA last sem, but hopefully its just gonna be the only drop and start to pick myself back up. Maybe Jan-Feb exams do feel something extra meaningful to me. Alright, it has been the past, lets get over it. However, it didnt just stopped at exams, I had a difficult 10 weeks of attachment at

两个相爱的人, 如果有了相反的梦， 分开以后，能记得什么？ 是相遇时的惊心动魄， 是相爱时的甜美时光， 是争执时的锥心刺骨， 还是分手时的最后祝福。 有些事，其实早就该放下，但我迟疑了。 收拾信条，打包回忆。 When the stars align, and planets are in accordance, we will meet again.