Writing down my journey..

A capture of Lorraine, France. Beautiful. Just started packing my luggage. Day by day, the anxiety starts to build up. Night by night, slowly passes by, it seems so long and frustrating, resulting in sleepless nights. Forcing myself to sleep, and when i woke up, its another day less before i leave my home for 4 months. Suddenly i sense fear, will i be good on myself? Whether my family will be all safe? What are the happenings waiting for me there? Will everything be fine? Are things going to be the same when i come back again after 4 months? That is the excruciating wonders of life i guess, no one knows whats going to happen the next sec. I shall peace myself out and look at it at one perspective - Enjoy myself :) I fought hard all these while in my poly i guess, i told myself that i will hit the top 5 of the class every sem and i did, proud of myself for achieving this little goal. Its time for me to enjoy after all these while. Last paper to go, Jiayou Yoong Kang Sing :)

I had go there everyday, look so peaceful. Go with the flow. Tomorrow mark the start of exams. 1st paper at 9am - Employee Relations. I feel funny actually, like lost. Got study but whether i can deliver on the exam hall is another thing. I dont know man, i feel i have been giving myself alot pressure these few years of exams. Maybe, its just time for me to relax. Kept thinking that life is not about exams isnt it. Anyway god bless me, let me get pass this with good As. I think i will go bonker soon, because i have 2 types of feeling everyday. Stressful about exams, and happy about flying in 5 days time. Stressful & Happy? I hope i dont go insane. Once again, god bless me.

突然觉得好伤心， 感觉上好闷。 或许是那些悲伤的歌曲在我的playlist播放. 好希望每天都能开开心心的度过。 Going away for 4 months, really long. There is a doubt, just a little doubt on whether i can cope on my own, taking care of myself. It has always been my parents taking good care of me, relying on them pretty much and in 9 days time, its all on my own. I havent leave home for that long yet, i guess the longest was 10 days away from home, when i was off to a germany trip during secondary school times. I left 2 weeks for taiwan trip, but i still had guardians and my younger sister with me. Alright, its time to grow up and take charge of life. Face things and stop running away. Gonna be brave! I shall start planning on what i am gonna do at there, travel which places in korea. When i come back, i have some sketch in my head - while waiting for enlistment, i shall work hard to earn some good money. Jobs? Not sure yet, continue universal studio and esplanade? or try out Relief teacher? Also at the same time, it will be good for me to

Ah zai with $308 specs. Outside shufei intro place, which is closed after 4pm. Do we look like we are acting serious? Chao ren bu hui fei! :) good place for a picture Fair enough, played for 2 weeks. Study & exams for 2 weeks and then off to korea, phewwwwwwww. Cant wait, cos i havent been travelling for 3 years, whats more i am gonna live on my own for 4 months. I did suspect whether i can manage, still cant say yet, we shall see. Flying on the 3rd september, i think more or less those admin stuffs are settled, now are those items that i need to buy. Getting excited day by day, 12 days more! Anyway i have been getting interesting dreams every night, thanks to the care free holiday. Fun moments when u are enjoying it always passes so fast. Now I have enjoyed those outings with my friends during these 2 weeks. Its time to get myself with serious studying starting tomorrow. The next 11 days is crucial, also the last exams that i will be sitting in nyp. 3 papers, same old tactics to g

The reason why i am going, simple yet romantic. What a night i had yesterday. Walking into a place which look so different from the world that i felt it should be. It was my first time into a clubbing place, st james powerhouse, accompanied with adison, teck and iris. Its just weird to me looking at people behaving such differently with just the difference of a wall behind. I know its weird to say this because i am 18 afterall but it doesnt look like partying, it looked more like anyhow partying. Well, its proven that its not a place for me to be in, i always wanted to go in when i was younger, like 16,17 to feel the thrill of getting in at such a young age and getting caught anytime, but i dont when i can just walk in nicely, well its good too cos last night has shown a different side of many humans. Anyway, thanks to buddies who brought me in to look look :) I think I shall go back to my peaceful mozart music. Writing & writing... Realising this blog has been here for 3 years. Ca

Sunset is really nice because it gives a feeling of.. 轻松却让人舍不得... Gladly, Gladly, Gladly... What a relieved that the semester has ended, whats left now is 3 exam papers on the week of 30 Aug. Throwing all the politics, all the unhappiness, all the grudges, all the upset, all the disappointing, everything on the history book of 2010-2011 Sem 1 classroom. I will take those happy moments, those fun things that we enjoyed during the sem. How we shared laughter during squash and basketball games, How we suan each other openly while having lunch. How we share our sorrows and our discontents.. Those last min imprompt2 outings, but that were still fun. How we make the fun out of projects even though by making a video, making it more memorable and interesting for the last project. Nevertheless, it was indeed a busy sem for all of us. I guess there is a reason why we are called yr 3 students. There is a reason why it isnt a smooth sailing one, if it was, maybe it wouldnt be that much memorable.

Nothing to blame, its over. I had my time to prove.. but i fell short. Just a pity, cos it meant alot to me. You are enjoying now, probably much more, thats all good enough. When the stars align, and planets are in accordance, we will meet again. When we do, I promise i will never run again. For now, i will run as far as i can, I have got much to make up for these 4 years. I had a squash feast today with marcus bro with shannon and eileen. Feels good to do sports, did some running last week too. I am seeing my size expanding again recently, stress = eat. For this semester, almost done with it, left one last presentation on entrepreneurship on saturday. I want that 3 weeks badly!

I'm sure that I will always be It feels good to share some deep matters that I have been keeping to myself with my sister. She asked me.. "why do you like her". I can give many reasons for many girls that i know if it wasnt her, but just for her, i am lost for words. I find it too much to say, not with 1-2 days, be it 1-2 sentences. But my sister now understands why my mind is still all about her after all this while, 4 years. And I'm sure that you will always be. One sided it will always be too i guess, which girl will give someone a 3rd chance? Just glad that everything is fine for you now, better than knowing that u are feeling terrible, although not feeling really good too, a confused feeling of my own... Just really old little memories that is keeping me moving everyday. I dont think much, feeling is more real, i follow where my heart wants to go.

I love watching sunset, feel that it is the best ever thing to see in life. Compared to all the sunset pics i collected from the net, This was still the best sunset i ever had. You must be feeling terrible, but please dont be down, because your smile is my main source of motivation that keeps me moving everyday.

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee. When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups have been taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee. In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... An