Writing down my journey..

Words as honourable as it is sometimes may not be the actual truth of what we think subconciously, but dream does reflect the honest feeling of how we are feeling about ourselves and life. Last night, I had a dream on elevator. I was in it with my sister, we were taking it back to our storey.. However the elevator did not get us on to the indicated floor which we wanted and even got us over the limit of the building of 25th floor. The block was having construction on lift as it is increasing the level of storeys hence the elevator eventually reach on to the wrong floor at 40+ floor. After then, we were stuck there for awhile, panicing if we have to get out of the elevator and slowly climb the ladder down. But after then was pushed down by one of the contractor all the way to ground floor. This is the 10% of the dream that I could remember. Went to do an analysis on the web, and it truly reflects what I am thinking spiritually: http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/elevator-or-lift-d

OOT (Out of Training), which means no more further training at tekong, a dream that many soldier recruits would love to have. But for me, I am going through a mixed feeling. Once again, confused. Memories started to inundate through my mind on my first day when I stepped onto the sacred land of Tekong. What happened to me was I made a decision to consult the doctor after being down for sometime due to flu, cough and sorethroat which made me unable to give my 100% for training. I decided to look for treatment. Until when I stepped into the doctor's room, after mentioning the above symptoms. I decided to check my knee which have been a pain for me for the past 4 years that had more than 10 episodes of dislocation with the doctor. I had an x-ray and advised that my knee cap is higher up and referred to me a sports med at CGH, changi general hospital. At CGH, doctor did several check and I was later given a thorough check on my knee with the ultrasound device (a similar one that doctor

I could look at you for the whole day, listening to you, hearing you scolding me, holding your hand, staring at you, hearing you telling me the same thing over and over again, and will never get sick of it. Good morning sweetheart :)

OH ONE THING I WANNA REJOICE WITH! I PASSED MY COMPASS TEST! (Aka Pilot test) Based on the test, I am qualified to become a UAV pilot aka remote control pilot, Air Warfare officer C3 (the one at control station giving instructions) and Weapon systems officer (the one analysing data in fighter jet) But but but... I am not qualified to become a pilot. I am so happy that I got through the 5 hours test, which was mind-fucking tiring. Heard not many pass the test, so yea deserve to give myself a pad on my back :)

Little break from a 2 years army. Enjoying my 5 days break. Once again pondering... what will I become in the future? Who are you? What are you living for? Why are you here on earth? Who do I want to be? These 4 questions, even hesitated on the first. I realised as a teen, I am still searching for a place, a spot in the earth. I have too many ambition, dreams that I want to fufill them but I dont have enough time to do all them out. I can only choose one, but which one gurantees me the best future, which gurantees me the best stability and reward? Sign on with the singapore airforce? Get a honourable degree and work in the society? Setup my own passion and liking, an entreprenuer? Go for my passion for adventure - scuba diver? dolphin trainer? mountaineer? One of my biggest dream is to lay my footpath on the 5 elements in the earth that not many people has gone to the extent to, blending in with the earth and witness the real beauty of the nature - the 5 elements - fire(volcano), water

Last weekend was another memorable one with sweetheart. It was my first cruise experience and also our first time too as 2. Had this fate to travel on to the cruise all courtesy thanks to my dearie's effort who made it to the semi final of the cruise singing competition. Thank you dear for making this happen, and thank you fate and god for making it happen. I am fortunate to be able to cruise it up with you despite my commitment in camp. Have been thinking about this trip since 3-4 weeks back when the result was announced. I was thinking hard on how can i join you. But miracle do happens and it did, dont know how it does, but it just did. Both of us know this deep down in our heart, questioning it but secretly enjoying these moments :) I guess what happened, do happen for a reason :) However it seems this week have been a rocky start for you with a bad night on monday and things not going the way it should be. Like I said, when things gets more complicated. Dont fret, dont panic. W

Our relationship is full of surprises, its a miracle. Every week, or even almost everyday, theres a magical incident between us, as if there are two love angels pulling us together. Thank you for the blessings from above. Never stop believing, when you believe, there is hope. And.... my favourite quote; Keep hope alive. So sweetheart, just be yourself and sing your passion towards music out for tomorrow's singing competition semi final round :) Be you, and believe in yourself. When miracle happens, it signifies something good. So tomorrow will be a good one. All elements are on your side, the rest is all dependent on your own efforts. You will do well :) I BELIEVE IN YOU!

When that meteor crosses path high up in the sky, its where our love path begins its journey too. Whenever our magical 默契 re-ignites, i believed more you are the one. Every night, thanks for being that someone who I can turn to, where I can unleash all my troubles, share my happy happenings helping me to charge my body battery to the maximum for the next day. That little giggle of yours is good enough for me to pull through all the toughness i face, thanks for appearing in my life. Not only are you my lover, but also my soulmate whom i can selflishlessly share, sweetheart :) Happy 1st Month! Looking back at our days in our 1st month, Those times were good, they were lovely and worth remembered for :) 我不会甜言蜜语, 更不懂得讨女孩子欢心 我只想简单的做我自己 我只希望拥有一种能力 能让我爱的人笑咪咪 因为你我两颗心 慢慢的靠近 , You belong with me :) 24th Sept @ Vivocity. My first book out after 2 weeks confinement! Seeing you on first sight, that 2 weeks misery ended in a spilt second. Told ya I would bring you to do something that you won't