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Yay!~ Its the last day of this semester today! Finally can have a week to chiong my studies without going to school XD. ACES day is dam sian... The Teacher's day celebration was kinda interesting and entertaining. Nothing much lo... Got back PPR. Had 3 Distinctions , Two B3s.. , one C6 and one E8. I got E8 for my combined humanities... So sad... Gonna work extreme hard if i wan to get into tourism course liao.. After school , meet shuyu , yimei , lay kheng and jing han to buy a shirt for mr ow yong . Then later went to eat at kfc... So suay lo..Saw a bitch with her friends at toa payoh central.. Then shuyu , lay kheng and jing han came my house to play mahjong. Shuyu didnt know how to play. So we taught her... and she managed to game one round =D. Sadly... Lay kheng didnt managed to game any round. =( Played till 5pm then they went off le... I am so tired now... Wanna sleep liao... Bye!~ 未来却不能因此安排
Had Chinese Prelim Exam today. It was kinda hard to me.. I mean the entire paper was really hard.. But... just hope for the best lo... Then did some " hand exercise ". Played the stupid bottle cap battle with Jing Han , Marcus , Ben , Gordon and Deepak in class. Play until my hand muscle dam pain lo... Then after that is " leg exercise " Played soccer at Jing han house downstairs with the same people.. Drank the WANG-ZAI milk before playing... It was kinda nice.. I injured my own knee again.. But it was a sight injury... My knee still quite pain now.. After that , my mum ask me go central.. she want help me sign a atm card. Woohoo!~!~!~ Finally have my own atm card le.. XD Went home after that... What a tiring day... no mood to study liao.. i think left 54 days more to O Levels ba... AND i am not even fully prepared yet.. Haiz... 你是我生命的源动力
English Prelim Exam!~
Yes!~ English Prelim is over! Woohoo... I couldnt sleep well last night.. as i was thinking about this stupid English Prelim... I think i flunk it already... I spent around like 30 mins juz to PLAN the section 1 compo. And after i finish my section 1 compo , I left 30 mins to do the section 2... I was like WTF?!?!?!.. Summary was also quite tough.. haiz.. dun expect much this time.. Speaking of reitaliation , no one can win u.... I dunno why i keep thinking of you...
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Okay. Didnt go to school today. Did not want to.. nothing much to do in school. Revising english at home today... Quite bored... Argh!~ I shall just bear with it for these 2 months. and everything will be fine XD. Zhong Ji Yi Jia. The X-Family ROCKS! Anyone got watch? Anyone knows which poly teaches tourism course the best? I dun ask for much , i just want you to stay beside me. Because... u are my only hope left..
You have changed. You are no longer the person that i know.. Last time , i also had this immature thinking.. Thinking that if breaking up would make ur life better. Coz i know i didnt give much joy to u. But u was the one that told me.. even how hard the life will be with me.. You will not regret choosing me. You told me i was the only one u wanted. But i know times has changed. You are wooed by so many guys.. And u cant resist to flirt with them.. I know what is happening... I closed one eye and open another. When we break , u told me that u just wanted to PAUSE.... until my ' O ' levels is over. I agreed... and u swear that thats the only cause of pausing.. but after 5 days.. ur heart is no longer mine already... Dun u think u are so contradicting? If u did not really love me , u should have let go last year already. I know u are just using me as a chess. You will never know how to love unless u give...
Went to school just to take the stupid chinese spelling. or else i wouldnt be bothered to go to school.. as i will be sleeping or slacking in class.. But going to school today is also quite a fruitful trip... Got back English PPR marks.. got a B3... I top in band 4 okay...( with xingzi getting the same score too ) only 2 B3 in class. =D something to boast about... coz i will have something good for my tuition to feel proud about XD. I know its just a PPR and not many pple give a dam.. But for me.. being the top... boost my morale and confidence for the english paper on this coming wed. Got back chinese test marks too... i got 34/50. I know its not a good score... But the highest is only 37 and the second is 34.. If i could get 37... i will be on clouds nine!~ coz both of my languages will be top in class.. which i haven experience before.. I nearly did it... but... NEARLY only... Erm.. thinking of it.. my english really did improve... I was copying my friends english assignment last y
Woke up at 9 today.. to catch Survivor Fiji =D.. Then watched other channel 8 shows till 11pm... Then realised that i have english tuition at 12 noon... Went to bathe... left home at 11.30... I know i will be late... coz i still have to photocopy some notes that Raina lent me.. I really appreciate the notes that she lent me.. coz seldom.. people from those good schools.. are willing to lend their notes away... and somemore... she even tutor me... I appreciate it.. Thanks!~ Went to makan after tuition then go home coz no where to go.. Wanted to stay out for a little while more coz i still have tuition at 4.30.. But went home coz nth to do... Online for awhile then meet Jing han to go tuition le lo... Marcus and Jia wen quarrelled during tuition today... Longlasting couples always quarrel.. so that they will know the importance of their partner... But for my case... she dun give a dam. Then took train with Jing han , Marcus , Edwin and Sheryl . then saw a gal that wore the same co
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Okay... Wasnt that productive today... Woke up at 9am as usual to catch SURVIVOR!~ I did a research and found out that Survivor 15 , china will be showing on 20 sept in America.. So i think it would be showcase in singapore around that date... Awaiting for that day =D I missed survivor really alot.. Then watch zhong ji yi jia ep 13 posted on the web... Then went out to meet shuyu , yi mei and jing han to study. Did some maths questions then switch to do chem... Ow yong came at around 2.30.. I didnt do much maths questions these days so did not have questions to ask him.. coz my main focus is to do well for my english and humanities now.. U guys must be shocked why i suddenly want to do well in humanities ba.. coz i want to take the tourism course in poly and combined humanities must be included inside. and to be able to qualify , i have to hit a single digit for my L1B4.. I think the cut off point is 10 for most polys ba.. Haiz.. so gonna work hard... Studied till 6pm then walk tgt
Okay... feeling so tired now... dunno why too... Didnt go to school =D Yesterday dinner was SO So so full..... My stomach nearly explode.... Even jing han ate more than i do... Its so not fair lo... I eat not that much but my size keep expanding whereas when other pple eat , they still cant gain much weight... Argh!~ Saw a few 10/10s at the hotel there... most of them were ang mohs.. Woohoo!~ But couldnt get there phone number =X I was so full and drunk and tired yesterday.. that the moment when i reach home and finish bathing... I drop dead on my bed...till this morning... Okay... i gonna go study liao... Jia you everyone =D 5 more days to PRELIM!~ 59 more days to O LEVELS!~ Because of you... i gave up my studies for a period.. Ask yourself , is he able to give up his studies just for you?
Okay... went to school today coz got PE!!~ Hehe... But only get to play soccer for like 10 mins during PE... Didnt played that well... Haiz.. ever since i injured my knee... I did not dare to play that aggressive liao and also couldnt produce that many goals... Had our A maths test paper returned... I score quite badly... I wanted an A1 but could only achieve an A2.. I think i have to work extra harder... Ate alot during recess today... If i keep on eating... i think i am gonna be like gabriel already... Assembly was kinda interesting today. A singaporean that is the head of the disney came our school to teach us some techniques on drawing. and i feel that with just simple drawings.. we can make nice pieces... Played soccer after school... It was like decades that we play soccer together after school lessons in the school field... i think 17-19 pple were in the field... More than half are from our class.. So unfortunately , we had to sacrifice jarrod and gabriel to the E1s... Our cla
Didnt go school today... Yi mei also didnt go.... We paka dun go de coz we feel that going school arent effective. coz i feel that maybe self study at home is better.. Yea.. it was better... I can learn more and also i dun feel that tired... Jarrod messaged me why i didnt go school. I am so touched. although he always make fun of me in class. This shows who are really my true friends that care for me. I told Jing Han i would not be coming so he didnt message me. I woke up at 8 plus then watch the channel 8 morning news show. It was about the discussion of whether it is effective using modern music to teach chinese. They also showcase Anderson and Jurong JC school environment and culture. Then started studying social studies at 10. Studied till 12 plus then yi mei came my house to study too. Then she study physics while i continue studying my ss. Then at 2. I was asking yi mei if shuyu will call her then after 1 sec , she called her. Lolz... so qiao lo. They said they just releas
Went to school as usual lo... I feel that it is meaningless to go to school nowadays... Half-awake during social studies lesson. Chatting and playing during maths lesson. Next week is prelim and haven settle down for the right mood... Haiz... Something happened during ENGREEESSSH Lesson today! I was talking with chung kai about our social studies marks in mandrain. then that mrs singh/miss kaur thot he is scolding profanities. Then here goes the story... Mrs Singh : "Who is scolding vulgarities?!?!?!" *everyone kept quiet* Then she look at chung kai coz chung kai and i was talking in mandrain and she doesnt even understand a word so she thought he was scolding profanities. Then mrs singh ACCUSED chung kai ... Then chung kai got irritated... So here goes the conversation.. (Kids under 13 years old are advised not to see the content below coz it contains profanities.) Chung Kai : " I didnt scold vulgarities! " Chung Kai : " Ur ear got problem is it?? &qu
Wah... so tired today... think is coz yesterday 12 plus then sleep... I am not used to sleeping late but trying to.. coz prelim and o levels drewing nearer le.. need to study till late coz i started my revision quite late... Went to school as usual lo... It was kinda fun and lame during chem lesson.. Had quiz during chem lesson.. it was battle of the sexes... Although we won , but also no prize... I did fairly well in the e maths common test. At least got an A1 coz i studied for 2-3 hours. But there is still rooms for improvement =D. Went to the CC near our school to study with shuyu and yimei . Did an A maths paper... At least learnt somethings =D.. Then ate with them at KFC then went home with bus 235 lo... I think that the night study isnt that effective for me... maybe study alone at night will be better =D. My life is like so sian... everyday have to study... Haiz.... 2 more months... I shall bear with it!~ Jia you! Does the word 'FOREVER' exists?
Okay. Another boring day... Woke up at 9 to catch the hsow Survivor Fiji Replay. Had Maths tuition from 11 plus till 2 plus. Online awhile then some of my tzu chi friends came my house for dunno what gathering to celebrate that they emerge first in the shouyu competition. Congrats to all of them!~ Couldnt join in the fun coz gonna go for tuition. Wanted to skip actually XD. Heard that Melwin and Leonita had a quarrel due to some misunderstandings. Hope they will patch up. Lolz.. sound so wrong... It was kinda fun during Chemistry lesson =D Guessing the answer and check it with the teacher's answer key. which we are not supposed to... But he is 80% away from the class. So we had lots of chances guessing the answer =X Went home after tuition... Watching soccer match now. Sian... Man U losing 1 goal now... Hope they can turn the table around... Okay... feeling the pressure now... 2 more months to the big 'O'!!! Jia you everyone! I am starting to move on...
I will SURVIVE!~ =D
First I was afraid I was petrified Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong I grew strong I learned how to carry on It took all the strength I had not to fall apart kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart and I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry Now I hold my head up high and you see me somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me
Study Day!
Okay , woke up in the morning at 8 plus then went to toa payoh hub to meet Raina. Then headed to the mac near tpy library to study with her... Or maybe she tutor me? Lolz... I am kinda weak in my studies so asked help from her.. Studied with her for 3 hours coz she got to meet her friend for lunch then heading back home. Although the study time was kinda short but i did learn many things =D Thanks Raina ! =D Then meet shuyu and yimei to study after that at the same place... Jing han came 1 hour later coz he got soccer match. Ow yong came at 3 plus to attend to those maths questions that we need help.. Felt tired at 3pm already... cant really do much after that... Then studied chem instead... Then finish studying at 6pm. Then we head towards toa payoh hub coz shuyu meeting lay kheng to go to Leonita birthday party. Heard that she only call our class girls but i bet that she will ask Melwin along too. Heh. =P. Took 235 home then jing han , shuyu and lay kheng took 231. Nothing
A NEW ME!!!
I realise how much time i have wasted... I should look forward and not look back to the past. After all , she also dun give a dam. A NEW Alex is born on 17/8/07. Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today =D She changed my life. She gave me hope.
U wanna compare pathetic? 6 times broken with u , Did i changed my feelings for you? Did i fall for someone instead? In the end we still patched up. How about u? Which longlasting couple didnt break up before? Ask yourself , do u really love him? Is our love so brittle as compared to u and him? All u takes was 5 days? If u had taken 1 or 2 months , i can understand. But look , 5 days... Do u really know what is love? To love somone is to contribute and not wanting to gain back anything. But i think the only thing u want is happiness. Nvm , since u really love the situation now , I still wishes both of u all the best. Even though i didnt want to. You think i am better now? When i am alone , i am feeling miserable. u dun understand coz i didnt did so much pain to you before by just having a replacement FIVE days later. This blog was created coz i promised to you that i will create one. How about those promises u made?
Nothing much today... Went to school as usual lo... Couldnt go for PE lesson coz of the rain outside... Argh.... Lessons today were boring... Double Maths , Double Chem , Single Chinese and Double English... Slept during english lesson coz cant talk , rather sleep than listen to her chanting.. Still have tuition later on.... Felt so pathetic... 我们的爱 ， 过了就不再会来。 I regret...
O levels English Oral!!!!
Okay.. its o level english oral today!! and i successfully got over it! Oh Man.. i cant speak english that well but i did tried my best. I think i did kinda alright. I was satisfied for my performance , i rate 7/10 for myself. =D Three questions were thrown to me during the conversation -Tell me about the competition that u had taken part before. -Do u prefer to take part in individual competition or in a team competition? -Do u think winning is the most important in a competition? English oral cleared!!!! Now have to worry about the written papers which is in 2 months time. Jia You! Something funny happened today! While we were playing a ball ( kinda small) dunno whats that~ then when i throw to kenji and he miskicked it! Then , we heard a 'zip' sound... Oh my god!! Jenji's pant was torn. somewhere at his thigh... Felt sorry and guilty coz i was the one that threw the ball.. Sorry Kenji!! I knew that day will come , it was just a matter of time , i knew i was just a tempor
Went to school as usual in the morning. Half listening and half sleeping during history lesson. Got back physics common test result and it was horrid!! Gonna buck up on my physics!!! Chemistry was also no where better too. We had chemistry common test today and had the review straight away after the test. Its like.. so fast??? Did better for chemistry but wasnt satisfied... Gonna study more!!! Feeling more stress as the prelims and the big O exams are coming. Oh my.. haven even started revising on my humanities... Haiz... feeling like so unproductive... My grades are still quite a distance away from my target. Left 2 months... it is still possible??? Its about what u do and not what u say it still hurts and u dun even give a dam.
Start of something NEW!
Here is the first post! =D This blog is born on 14th August 2007! Some things are left unsaid. Alot of my feelings are kept secret. Just dun wanna affect people around me. And these feelings will always be secret. Coz u will never know how i feel. I have no choice. But to swallow all the pain. It really hurts. and its all because of you..