Writing down my journey..

Is there justice in this world? When you are being a nice person, people start climbing over you. Cant really understand some girls in my class, cant they be more sensible and mature, and say things that is right? Some bitches are fucking badmouthing behind my back especially when they dont get the facts right. Didnt your kindergarten teacher thought you not to talk behind people's back especially when you dont know that person well or dont get the whole facts right. Go about telling the whole world how they dont like me, added with 4 letter word **** adjective and still ask me to help them buy clip for their project with a fake smile. LOL la. I am seriously laughing at these noobs. I could have act like a bastard and ignored you, but that would have made me no different from you guys. Idiotic hypocrites... Go bang something to wake yourself up please.. You cant do quality work, skip lessons, self declare break during lessons, blame others instead of yourself, only know how to goss

Its been really hard. Looking at your blog, looking at our memories.. How much 1 year can change things around. How much a love was worth. It makes me so hard to breathe.. Visited your facebook, Out of the 72 photos, there was one that i stared for sometime. You smiled, you seems happy. But was that the true smile of happiness? Remembered how it started... was one slim hope of light - "What if your zero chance has increased? what will you do?" ... I was touched by one of your long post on 22feb which i missed out last time. If i have seen that post again, I would have made sure you was the one. I thought i had put in effort. But think back.. hah.. i didnt. I was busy playing game that i neglected you. All i have to blame is my negligence... I just went back to play that game again. But thinking of it now, you wouldn't want to see me doing that now too, so decided to stop it. Anyway, that was feb2009, its july 2010 now. Its always good to go back in time, but there isn'

As time goes by, things change. We slowly start to realise and pick up new lessons along the way about our changes. We have ups and downs as it goes, we start to identify some things and matters, these things slowly mature us as a person. We are no longer the kid in the backyard kicking ball and catching spiders anymore, not the cute little one that people will look at and say how cute anymore. We start to step into the reality where we have many things out there waiting for us to do, we meet many friends along the way too. We start to realise that we are no longer able to please everybody around us, then we decide who are the people we should please and keep beside us based on our goals and dreams. I have been wanting to please everyone around me since i was a kid. Till today, then i realise i couldn't do that anymore. I don't know why do i really want to please everyone, maybe its because i dont want to be detested by the others. There are many things we cant control, especia

Are we cherishing what we have in front of us now? We are already so fortunate, yet we procrastinate so much. How about those people that has problem with poverty. Singapore used to be very poor when it just gained independence, poorer than some africa countries at that time. Remembering the first sentence when people greet each other, "Hello, have you eaten?" This shows where people came from. As time pass by, this greeting seems to fade off as Singapore now is developing much better now, now we dont usually hear this greeting except maybe from our grandparents or parents. But for our generation, it has changed. But with the rate of the things happening that couldn't be explained like floods, tsunamis, earthquakes, falling of trees, and even UFOs flying around these 2 weeks in china. Its very easy for the mother nature to sweep us off back to zero. Appreciate what I have in front of me before its really gone. Also, i have got a bad nightmare yesterday. Something similar

1 and a half more month, 7 weeks more, 50 days more :) Sometimes just feel that i am being too serious in unnecessary matters. Just being too hard on myself, wanting things to go the smooth way always, and when it doesnt, i start to become unhappy. There is so much things to experience in life, if i am already so upset with such matters, i cant take on life. 多一事不如少一事，少一事不如没有事。 Treat things with more positive perspective, thats when i can become more happy. Isnt life about being happy? :)

你知道吗？我突然好想你。 今天下午，我和几个同学到樟宜机场做一些关于课务上的探查。 走着走着，经过了我们当初在情人节一起读书的那一间茶亭，让我翻开了一些记忆。 我们那天没说很多话，就纯属谈谈和读书，但在我的内心里却有一种说不来的感受，就只知道你在我身边时，很快乐，有一种特别的感觉，很安心。那天的我，也许是我们记忆里最开心的一天吧。 悄悄走过那间茶亭，慢下了脚步， 复刊回忆。看着那张我们噌今做过的椅子和桌子。。。想着是否是当时的冲动而许下的承若，或是真心真意的意念所许下的。 没什么坏意，只是真的突然好想你。:(

When god closes one door, he opens another door. As we move, we learn. People are hard to understand especially girls. I am taking this chance to learn how to control my emotions and putting some test to my communication skills and patience rather than dwelling about it. Alex, you can do it. God bless me. Thanks for the fun talk lunch today, it felt good to have some laughters with marc and teck ;)

If life goes smooth, it would have been a bore story. Countdown to study in Korea: 62 days. Slowly, I am letting go of those commitments that I am carrying at the moment. Rather than dropping all at once together, i would have left with a deep wound if i do. I believe there is always a start and an end to everything. Thats life, we only have 24 hours per day, when we gain something, we got to drop something, sometimes more than what we expected. I am saying Goodbye to Mediacorp first and atmost after being a part timer there at CNA since February. Definitely one of the job that i have learnt plenty of it and not the very first thing i want to let go, with those outdoor shootings, oversea shooting, experiencing the power of media, shooting some scenes on my own and also transcribing. Lin, my supervisor let me experience what it is like in the producing line in media. I am very grateful that i was given such experience, will carry these little skills and techniques with me :) Whats left