Writing down my journey..

It all feels like a dream, I really dont know how do i bid farewell to these new friends in korea. Last night, after seeing snow, I went back to the dorm and my roommates were still awake at 3.30am. We ate and talked abit and turned in to bed. While all of us were lying on our bed, just about to close my eyes. One of them said.. "Will you miss us alex, we only left 2 weeks in here" because after 2 weeks the semester ends. Until then i realised, i dont left much time in here. This morning, I heard from my ecuador friend is returning early, and her flight would be this thursday. Why do we have to say goodbye? Can't we just have the accompany we have like now. All these really feels like a dream, we come hastely and go hastely. Come N go. I should have known better all this will come to an end, right now I am just glad that I am still dreaming, really. I really dont wanna say goodbye. How happy we were and are right now, the more hesistant i am now and the more upset i will

Said bye to 18, felt like 18 just went off without a goodbye. So quick, so fast. So what are the memorable things i did in my 18? 1) Worked & Learned @ Mediacorp, called upon for a TV shoot to batam. 2) HelloFM DJ 3) Korea trip Actually my 18 was pretty plain, but I was happy that I have at least 3 things to bring away with me. I had my 18 resolution but i didnt think I fulfilled any. Sigh. Anyway I have made 3 wishes for my 19. 1) Peace & No war 2) Slim down & good shape 3) * A secret for myself * 19 started with a bomb! I was really happy that my friends in korea celebrated for me. I actually persuaded myself that this year would be a quiet one because my ships are in singapore. But I still have these awesome people who put in effort, i am sorry for breaking their heart. Accidentally flipped the cake, jay chou piano cake :( I got blindsided too, after drinking 3 sojus and 2 beers. I felt like a dick, my head was spinning while i was walking, i acted so weird, after lookin

Another interesting stuff in korea about a restaurant. Sometimes really wonder if there is a curse. 2 months ago.. Me, bryan and daniel. we were looking for a place to eat. Saw this place with bbq signage displayed at the building. We then walked down to B1 to this restaurant, Lets name it BBQ chicken restaurant. Sat down, and ordered chicken and beer. After the beer came, the owner then told us, they do not have chicken. Any dish will do except with chicken. "Then why is their BBQ chicken on their signage?" Ordered something else and left unsatisfied. 6 weeks back, me and daniel decided to knock on their door to check if they have chicken this time. We went down and found out... "We do not sell any food, only drinks" Okay.. so 1st time no chicken. 2nd time no food. What will happen if we go 3rd time? 2 weeks back, we really went again. Its the 3rd time. Dejavu... The restaurant was closed with diamond shaped steel gate, signaling that it went down. We went 3 times,

Sick of the weather hate it for being so cold. It is making me feeling so restless. I struggle to stay happy and alright. Seemingly that all the air i breathe in, feels like dust. That bad that i skipped classes today, One of the side effect of winter.

Does dream reflect the most truthful feeling of me? If it does, I didnt know the feeling was that extreme strong. I saw a total different me because of it. Full of courage, full of ways, that i can almost overcome anything. Yet.. something still didnt change, the acceptance from her. How great, its her birthday today too.

I am a happy man now, thanks to 2 beer. Fri, sat and sun doesnt work without a beer. I know i should be on diet. I am fighting a balance in between. Here to enjoy btw. Anw whatever i blog now is by a dipsy alex. Thank you, for giving me a good sunday. I woke up at 11am, went on to church with daniel taken by a mini bus. Many people went, mainly because they said "free lunch" u laughed hard. i didnt go there for that anw. People sang songs, Preaching, Sharing of story Offering prayer and etc. I am a buddhist btw, just going on to take a look on korea church. I went on a right timing. They had a table tennis tournament after that. Hahaha, table tennis, my love. They immediately dropped me for a tournament. I was taken aback but i accepted it. It was a double with another guy, a guitarist. Hold on for a minute, a guitarist playinging TT. Doesnt sounds logical, and indeed it was. To be fair, i blamed myself too for the errors. We also had some basketball game, they also had pizza

Just a guy walking in the crowd. I appear cheerful, I show no sign of sorrow. I always want to make people laugh, I will be there if anyone needs me. But, when i am feeling down. I dont know who can i turn to. I cant seem to be able to express it out. Its going to hide inside on and on, as much as i dont want to. Self destruction, this is what happening. Again, i lay low on the coast. Looking at the sky as birds fly pass, regretful images starts to appear. I still cant believe how far apart we are now. Used to be the closest of everything. Yet now, we are just a hi-bye friend. Really 不甘心. We know we aint a good match, we know that clearly inside our heart. But, something just doesnt make sense. 人说变就变, 为什么? It just doesnt make sense, why are humans designed this way? Why cant we just be like swans? I tried to find out the result, but you just dont want to say it out. I have lost courage in asking. Its rejection after rejection. Do you know behind every question took a tonne courage. I a

Never thought i would experience winter, Playing soccer below 0 degrees is no joke. Will the snow be here? Getting colder by days, piling with more layers, as if going for a ba zhang competition. I feel like a dragon now, blasting icy. Today was a really good day. I seldom enjoy myself this much. Pingpong with Young Kim at 11am, good footwork exercise for that. Found a new tasty toast bread place, perfect for breakfast and lunch. Took back mid term exam, had 100% - way to go! Soccer @ nam seum park for 2 hours, nice played. Dinner gathering, got to meet new people and really funny games. Someone made my day there. Bak kut teh cooked by sg girls, appreciated. Dinner with topher & daniel @ 10pm. Home sweet home @ 12am. Good day, good night :)

Flipping some old songs hiding in one corner on my desktop, Searched through some songs 5 years ago on youtube, realised that ... nothing stops. We dont want changes, but time cause changes. A 15 yr old alex would be sitting in front of the computer - listening to songs and emo over it, watch dramas, chiong maple. But now, i dont have the habit anymore. Its been 4 years and seems that the world will continue revolve while we slowly adapt to changes. Although, i still can now, but really? In another 4 years time, would we still have this childish privillege? At different stages of life, we enjoy different things. Appreciate and enjoy them rather than complaining about it, because when they are gone, again would be next life.

As the students gather, we tripped to seoraksan. Games on the bus, I was being called randomly to sing. What a luck. With rock, paper, scissors, and i was the ultimate winner again. Shortly, hwan cave was here. Walking up a steep hilll to get to our destination, but a shortcut when we railed down. Being accomodated and into groups for dinner cooking, I was a loaf sitting on the couch, while 3 china chefs was preparing. Just 3 years older than me, but was able to prepare a feast. Games again that was in korean, strangely bad. And we see ourselves ending the night, with 5 gentlemens sleeping together, budget. Rise & Shine, the glazing sun was calling upon us. a hated short bus ride brought our sleepy heads, to our finale - seoraksan. Mountains, lakes, maple leaves, i found myself blending in, this is where i truly belong, but reality is cruel. After a glance, we see ourselves bidding farewell to this place, a beautiful nature place named 3rd highest in korea. Aloha seoraksan~ Enjoyin

Every name, there is a meaning behind it. Courage, Impulsive energy & Fervid imagination. Short and sweet, clearly explains who am i, alex.

I have faith in myself that november will be a month filled with good and tiring days ahead. Sarongsan, Busan and Seoul exploration soon. I am self declaring that i am officially on diet. I will run at least once per day to keep me going, today was a good start. Did 3km on treadmill, though isnt the best place to be on for running. My diet will only end on March 2011. Giving myself 5 months to stay away from all the food i ate, i am sick of it already, constantly telling myself that. At the end of the month, i also have to prepare for final exams. And when november ends, I will realise i am only left with another 3-5 weeks stay in korea. This is how quick it gets. So.. cherish what i have now :) Things will get simple when i am back because i get to throw off my studies for the timebeing and do interesting stuffs and get committed in things. Or maybe leaving it to pure simplicity :) Cheers to a good plan ahead and also diet plan.