Writing down my journey..

Ending the year with a happy run. Every christmas & year end, some old memories would start coming back to me. Especially those during my poly times when I was active in HabboSoup. Never thought an online game radio station would give me so much memories. It was 2008 where we all gathered for christmas, 5 years have passed. Sometimes I would wonder how are they doing, hope all is well for them. I forgot how things started fading away but those times were great and thanks for the memories. I am determined to go Korea next year like how much I wanted to do it in 2011 but I didnt fulfill my wish. As I am writing this, I am pondering if visiting topher in US would be great as well. We will see. So 3 achievements to unlock in 2014. 1. Visit Korea/US 2. Get driving licence during summer break 3. Simply be happy (because life is too short to care for unnecessary stuff like dieting) Like many others, I ponder if I have achieved anything so far. I have a stable part time job, studyin

In 1930, the New York Times printed an article uncovering certain Chinese government documents. They revealed that herbalist Li Ching-Yuen was born in 1677 and received official congratulations on this 200th birthday in 1877. However, he claimed that he was born in 1736. No matter when he was born, he died on May 6th, 1933, telling his students the he had completed all his tasks in this lifetime, and was now ready to come home. Despite his age, he constantly practiced herbalism and martial arts. When he Li was 250-years-old, Chinese army General Yang Sen invited Li to visit him and teach Chinese soldiers martial arts. Yang Sen was surprised to learn that despite Li’s age, he was still youthful. Li Ching-Yuen related his knowledge for longevity in this simple sentence: “Retain a calm heart, sit like a turtle, walk swiftly like a pigeon, and sleep like a dog.” There are other accounts of Western health prodigies and Eastern Yogis living for over 100 years. It is very easy, especially

3 presentations done in 2 days. I should feel relieved but not certainly. Thinking I didn't do my best. A sense of guilt is being developed. There seems to be something lacking in my presentation that I used to had them when I was in poly. Have I lost the drive? Or am I demanding myself more? Previously in poly, I can confidently tell myself that I am getting the "A" but not in all 3 presentations. I felt I delivered perfectly for the first one, the 2nd & 3rd seem to have divided my enthusiasm and attention, rating myself just a B grade for these 2 presentations. I feel unjustified, lack of control with such uncertainty. However I have enjoyed my times in these 3 groups, we had some disagreements at times but they were resolved quickly. The crux is do not take such arguments personally, it creates disharmony that is non-beneficial for both party. For now, I would like to take a little rest of 2 hours. I have been tirelessly working on projects over the

Yiruma reminds me of Korea. I played them regularly. The last time I studied in school was my exchange in Korea. The amount of fun that an exchange student get to enjoy while studying is incomparable. Really wanna re-visit that place again. Next week - 4 Final Presentations and 1 Essay submission. I need strength, please make me a saint just for a week. 会过去的. Anyway I realised I have changed, for the better. The old me was really aggressive and assertive in terms of projects. Usually I would want things to go my way and if it doesn't . For eg. deadlines I set for my group members are not met or the quality is insufficient, I would flare up easily. However, I am in control of my emotions now. Grateful to Sheryl who indirectly taught me there are much more important things in life. We shouldn't be angry over meaningless things. I feel ashamed and guilty for my past behaviors to my previous groupmates. I am sorry.

Slowly as weeks progress, I have come to realize I am on my 10th week of school. Time just seem to pass really fast. In 2 weeks, I will be picturing a blood bath week. 3 - 4 major presentations, 1 essay due that week. I need strength. From week 1 to now week 10, I see a transformation. From complaining to conforming. I have slowly adapted, more comfortable with my groupmates also. Things will just get better from here :) Got complimented by one of my prof on my presentation skills as well, I felt flattered but its always good to receive compliments from profs. Some nostalgia feeling when I entered Coffee Bean today, heard the radio playing - too little too late. A song from 2006/2007. It was classic because it was one of the popular songs that I played on Habbosoup Radio when I just joined them. A place where I picked up self confidence and communication skills.

Life should be this peaceful yet interesting. I am sick of being a typical product of this world. I hated how society pressure, made me once assertive and aggressive. Week 6 of school has ended, I am progressing pretty fine. Handling the workload and stress well :) To make things more complicated, (the usual me) I have added a dog to the addition. She was really obedient last night, no barking from 11pm till 5.30am. Until my mum walked into the kitchen at 5.30am, she started barking. I was awakened also, hurried to check. My parents kept telling me she is hungry but i thot she wanted to shit. Still went on to prepare some food for her still. Midway preparing, she really pooped! Went back to sleep till 7.30, She started her bark again, must be sth wrong. She pee-ed but not in pee tray. Her legs got stained by it too. I let her out to play soon, she pooped again lol, but went back to eat her shit. After that went on to lick my dad LOL. She really brought some joy, but think there goes my

Meimei at petshop! Resting on my fat tummy haha Sheryl giving her first tubby hug to Meimei! Fated, The stars aligned and planets were in accordance, Sheryl and I had to choose this toy poodle for some specific reasons that meant something for both of us. The grandmother story goes.. We decided to go for some shopping on dogs, woke up in the morning on wed, i didnt had sch. We headed to Seletar farmway, but we didnt liked the environment and left rapidly. *the way there was long. We then headed to school for an hour, for some psychology research. Sheryl then suggested, "Can we go to the pet farms in pasir ris?" How can I turn my girl down rite? So right after the research, we were on the cab at 3.01pm sharp LOL. Upon arrival, there are 10-20 pet shops at there. Ecrisson pet farm didnt had many small dogs, we then headed to a section, where they are labelled from Kennel 1 to 10+ thats the paradise for dog shopping. We went into all shops that were opened, we found some

So I was listening to music while studying. Suddenly, the tone of the music sounded similar something similar to the genre of music I listened in Sec 2. I am 22 this year and that was 8 years ago. Felt as if like the 不能说的秘密 movie scene where they use music to travel time. So.. where is the difference - now and 8 years ago? Room was still the same. I am still studying. Nothing much changed. Actually I like such feeling at times, its like an advanced nostalgia. Secondary 2, I just followed the track where attaining education is necessary. Now, age 22, I get to choose to study what I like and what to do in my life. More responsibilities along the way, many more things adding onto our journey of life. But are we happier growing up? Or were we happier back then as kids? I enjoyed my teenage years the best, native and innocent - truly priceless 再见了小时候

A getaway is important. It helps to refresh us. However this refresher was somehow a reminder to me. It tells me that studying is not all. Why study hard? GPA? Why GPA? Good Job? Good job = high GPA? This equation doesnt seem to work out. However I will still do what is needed and balance out with what I want in life, and graduate without a regret :) This trip also coincides with our 2nd year anniversary :) Prepared this meal for my girl, woke up at 430am!

Stress! Reflecting on my week 3 performance, starting to adapt better :) Redeemed myself with a better quiz score for psy from 4/10 to 8/10. I needed a decent score to prove that my hardwork was worth it. I shall build on this to achieve better grades. Started to talk and answer more questions during class as well. However the stress tension is pounding every week. From next week, will be having at least 1 presentation per week. Having 2 actually next week. Its a different style of doing projects here as well. Everyone is vocal and wants their idea to be heard. Its harder to come to a consensus or even being misunderstood at times. Life of university - Welcome to SMU.

A little time for reflection. Yes, I know I am struggling. Its one of the most crucial period of my education life. The last four years left in this 17 years of education (pri-sec-poly-uni) But I am put to a whole new test. A new environment, (from a soldier - student) A new studying culture, (from poly - university) A higher level of intelligence Everything seems new in SMU. Its the 3rd week. Past 2 weeks was a struggle. It was nothing near poly, to be honest. We had the same classmates for at least a year or two. What is a class formed by - teacher, classmates and classroom. However, the classmates seem so unfamiliar from every lessons. Competitiveness is a different level too. Its alright to be competitive, but there are rules. Some people don't follow them. Yet they appear to be cheerful and seems nice. That is where you get a wolf with a sheep coat. But nvm, let them be. With all these new changes made to my life, its inevitably that I get tensed and stress. I am in the pro

Said goodbye to my camp Bid farewell to NS Near 2 years memories inundated my mind I would like to thank my girlfriend, sheryl all these while in near 2 years. Going through thick and thin with me. Someone whom I can turn to for affirmation and love. Whenever I lack motivation and positiveness, you are like an unlimited energy bar to push me through. Someone whom I know will always be there. Here is a quick post to you to let you know how fortunate I am to have you as my girlfriend, a soulmate & also a best friend. You are one a of kind and we belong together :) Next month is our 2 year anniversary, and I am looking forward to it. As well as.. our 2nd overseas trip to taiwan tomorrow :) If there is one thing that I hope that can stay as a constant in my life, I hope its you :) Continuing from my last post prayers, I was partially spared but I did pay a price for my wrongdoings still. 7 days of freedom. However it has ended :) Had SOSS camp for the past 3 days. It has assured my d

Before this month ends. Please allow me to rant on this space. Whenever I rant my unhappiness here, it would seem to miraculously work out fine after. May was great, early June was too. But last friday wasn't a pleasant experience, considering I am finishing my army service soon on 7 Aug. Detailed story would not be appropriate to share here, it would be worse if I got caught here for some stupid breach of leaking information but to summarise it, I was stupid and unlucky. You can bug me if u wanna hear it, I may share :) Hence I am here to ask for help. It would always work for me for some reasons, I may sound like a lunatic but it really happened. When I went out of cash once during my poly years, my bank miraculously came out a $200. When I met difficulties in studies, exams and friendship issues. Things would work out fine after venting unhappiness here. Because this time it seems that I maybe in deep trouble, which in the worst case I could be squatting in the "monkey hous

Lying down at the sea shore  waves coming forth to me barely touching my chin and sliding back to the ocean This is what i called tranquility. Welcome to a late post of Redang Beach that I went from 16 to 19 May! We went there by plane! Its faster but more exp too! The resort before we touch down! See the contrast of the water? Thats why we are back for the second time! Suntanning, enjoying the peace. Perfect with a cocktail Some quiet moments at the hammock :) And the wild times! Volleyball time! With people we met from KL. They were on their company excursion trip! Took a photo for collection :) Our common dinner place with the familiar faces again! Celebrated Laykheng's bday on 18 May! :) And our finale photo! Haha! 那些年！

With every turbulence comes a relief, every sigh a smile beneath, every adversity a golden reason, every tear a song in season, every setback a hidden chance, and every rain a chance to dance . This time its your turn to shine my dear. There is always a time for everyone but which slot suits you best have been decided by the dice of fate. Its really surreal hearing that you are through to the next round because this feeling is so unfamiliar yet one that we have been waiting. This journey started back last year, you bravely made your first baby step on to the audition stage for 华人星光大道2, hopeful but came just a little short. You made it to the 3rd song, you know how it feels when the judge requested more songs from you but when finally the results was announced, you dropped back home with a heavy heart knowing how close you were. We all know how close was it. This was the exact post: " Though you didnt make it through, but I am really happy to see you singing on stage. Compet

April was really a thrilled month and some events are still overlapping to may and even june. Based on my past years record, May has always been a busy and fun month for me. Looking forward to whats lined up for me :D First, I am being accepted into SMU Social Science! I had to go through an interview and I did what I could, walked away with a worried mind ,wasnt sure if the interviewers liked my views on the topic that was discussed during the interview. But this confirmation explains it! Secondly, Another good news! One of the best! Congratulations to Sheryl! She is going to taiwan! 第三届华人星光大道！Yes! She has made it! Fought bravely through 2 auditions. First was among 2000+ people and next was selected the top 134 and out of these elites, able to make it to top 18. When her name was announced at the result segment, we shouted. We knew its the changing point of her life from this moment onwards. For me, I am proud to be part of this journey with her! Going to Taiwan in June Feels

Gotta brave through it For the next 1 and half month, i have to up my patience bar and calmly wait for results from universities on my application. Its equivalent to...fishing. The feeling gets worse when people around you pull up a fish before you. But all I need is to remain calm and the end product will be the same. Its patience this month here.