Writing down my journey..

Different songs represents different phrases in korea. It make it seems like the journey in korea alittle longer. Misses those time, when i first settle down. Trying to understand what is happening around. Going into school and knowing the environment. Going around campus to find out whats around. Really good, thank you had a good time there. Song: Letter that i couldnt deliver - DJ DOC. I am back now, had fun in korea. Last day of 2010. Really feeling this year pass off pretty fast. and a little slow at times. up and down, like a roller coaster. Really, many things happened in korea. Once again, 3 pple i cant give up there. I will remember all of you forever. Cheers to new year. though, not really in a mood. I would like to wrap up 2010, by saying thank you to the 3 people who made 2010 a happy ending for me. Moving on :)

Some songs bring you through the journey of the memories, feels good when listening to them. Just rings me all the way back when i first started in korea. Now i have just sent mike off to vietnam. I dont feel much, until when the 'takecare' and 'bye' word came out, hidden tears nearly came out. I didnt know i am such an emo kid. Songs: 1) Letters that i couldnt deliver - DJ DOC 2) A guy like me - DJ DOC 3) La Bamba - Los Lobos 4) 2pm - i'll be back 5) 2am - you wouldnt answer my call 6) Hoot - SNSD

Long distance relationship, does it work out? Sometimes it freaks me out. When u told me that your friend is introducing you guy friends to you so that you wont be that sad. And you said you had fun. Sorry, i am selfish.

Goodbye, the last thing i want to say. I am really going to miss my friends. Just bid farewell. Thinking everything that is happening on the past 4 months. It just feels like yesterday was the 1st day with these people. Crying my memories out on my way back to dormitory, feeling really hard now. The happenings that we had all these time will be with me forever, i promise. Thank you comrades, you taught me something in life: Dont pull someone down, embrace them. Life isn't all about studying. When the stars align and planets are in accordance we will meet again.

Back from seoul yesterday. 2 days hanging out with topher and olga in seoul. and 2 funny happenings, or maybe more.. (No.1) We were queueing up for a ride at amusement park, lotte world. The adventure of sindbad. Anyway, in front of us were some malaysians, nth special about it. What happened was this korean at about age of 14 cut our queue, trying to stay just right beside us first then slowly moving in front of us. I was kind of unhappy about that, but i let it go. Until when we were about to ride the thing, when our turn is next, topher called him, "kid... hey kid.. Kid~" he didnt response. Until topher pat him on his back, he looked at him. Topher said, "next time when u wanna cut, at least ask first". The boy look at him and gave a retard slight smile look like.. "yea i did it, what u gonna do to me? i am gonna do it again." He also wanted us to sit separately on a 4 seat together ride when he took the one in the middle and when the ride finishes, BOO...

Its really cold out there today. Between -1 to -8 degrees. Tell me i need to warm up. Not feeling good now, might have caught a cold, shiit.

The 6 letters was what i wanted the most in life. But we cant understand each other even after a few years. Not anymore. There are more things to pursue. I am going for them instead than now. Telling myself no more turning back. Cant depart. just like the same to korea. The time for u is over. I had a good break these 3-4 months. Things turned for the better. New life gonna starts soon! Thank you topher, daniel for bringing me through this. I am young, i need advices. Thank you comrades :) In life, we do what we wanna do. We only account to ourselves, whether we are comfortable and helpful. This is when helpful comes in handy.

This korean dormitory mate wanted to find trouble with me when i had some fun with daniel in his room, pushed me and wanted to fight. just because i dropped his jacket that was hanging on his chair accidentally which sitting on it. He kept saying.. "U dont know korean culture?!?!?!?" If that is korean culture, go fuck yourself. Lucky someone stopped it, if not i would crush you, seriously. I havent fight for very long, that doesnt mean i am weak. Fuck you idiot, for coming over to my room for the past 2 weeks to use my bathroom and shampoo and wear my slippers everywhere u like. My parents didnt give me money to buy shampoo for u, ask before u use anything at least. That is korean culture.

Another 8 more days, Semester has ended, now i am literally waiting for graduation in may. If goes by plan, my army would be june. Enjoyed the snow on 8th dec, my first true snow experience. Seeing all my roommates going back, its just heartbreaking. Dwight - i will miss his singing Jung Min - I will miss his rapping Jody - I will miss him talking to his gf on the phone. There is nothing perfect, we humans has flaws in us. But we want to be perfect dont we, we had arguments before but we know it was unintentional, none of us wants conflict. None of us want trouble. We were able to understand and forgive each other, and of course we had more fun than anything else. Thank you for being a part of my life roommates. Me-Jungmin-Dwight-Jody Roommates we were, friends we are. Fuck, this is life. We say hi and bye. WHY? CANT BELIEVE i am RETURNING in 8 DAYS?! The friends i made here are too much for me to give up. I cant give any of them up especially 3 people. I really had a great time last s...

It brightens up my mood when someone care and believe in you, its a good feeling. I wish I have a girlfriend like you.

Up and ready for exams for next 5 days. How quick time has pass, cant believe i am returning soon. Able to experience university life, dormitory life, and all the wonderful things. My studies in korea will end in 5 days time, and also my polytechnic studies too. Did some changes to my hair today. Feel good to sit in a korea saloon, its a different feeling that I have to go a little bit further to actually feel it. I like this kind of feeling, going deeper and you see things at different perspective. Though exams are here, but I cant seem to forget 2 games Perfect world and maplestory. I have been listening to the OST of perfect world while studying and it made me feel better. The feeling of when I first started this game, a new game to me that i am missing even till now since last year June. Too bad that i cant play them in korea, because the ip is blocked for some reasons. All the best for the next 5 days alex!

Tell me its alright to eat and talk loudly When someone is sleeping. Tell me its alright to eat chicken @ 3am when someone is sleeping. Tell me its alright that you come to my room everyday to make noise and think it is funny. Tell me that i am wrong about all these. Fuck you, tell me it is my anger management problem. I need yiruma to calm down.

It all feels like a dream, I really dont know how do i bid farewell to these new friends in korea. Last night, after seeing snow, I went back to the dorm and my roommates were still awake at 3.30am. We ate and talked abit and turned in to bed. While all of us were lying on our bed, just about to close my eyes. One of them said.. "Will you miss us alex, we only left 2 weeks in here" because after 2 weeks the semester ends. Until then i realised, i dont left much time in here. This morning, I heard from my ecuador friend is returning early, and her flight would be this thursday. Why do we have to say goodbye? Can't we just have the accompany we have like now. All these really feels like a dream, we come hastely and go hastely. Come N go. I should have known better all this will come to an end, right now I am just glad that I am still dreaming, really. I really dont wanna say goodbye. How happy we were and are right now, the more hesistant i am now and the more upset i will ...

Said bye to 18, felt like 18 just went off without a goodbye. So quick, so fast. So what are the memorable things i did in my 18? 1) Worked & Learned @ Mediacorp, called upon for a TV shoot to batam. 2) HelloFM DJ 3) Korea trip Actually my 18 was pretty plain, but I was happy that I have at least 3 things to bring away with me. I had my 18 resolution but i didnt think I fulfilled any. Sigh. Anyway I have made 3 wishes for my 19. 1) Peace & No war 2) Slim down & good shape 3) * A secret for myself * 19 started with a bomb! I was really happy that my friends in korea celebrated for me. I actually persuaded myself that this year would be a quiet one because my ships are in singapore. But I still have these awesome people who put in effort, i am sorry for breaking their heart. Accidentally flipped the cake, jay chou piano cake :( I got blindsided too, after drinking 3 sojus and 2 beers. I felt like a dick, my head was spinning while i was walking, i acted so weird, after lookin...

Another interesting stuff in korea about a restaurant. Sometimes really wonder if there is a curse. 2 months ago.. Me, bryan and daniel. we were looking for a place to eat. Saw this place with bbq signage displayed at the building. We then walked down to B1 to this restaurant, Lets name it BBQ chicken restaurant. Sat down, and ordered chicken and beer. After the beer came, the owner then told us, they do not have chicken. Any dish will do except with chicken. "Then why is their BBQ chicken on their signage?" Ordered something else and left unsatisfied. 6 weeks back, me and daniel decided to knock on their door to check if they have chicken this time. We went down and found out... "We do not sell any food, only drinks" Okay.. so 1st time no chicken. 2nd time no food. What will happen if we go 3rd time? 2 weeks back, we really went again. Its the 3rd time. Dejavu... The restaurant was closed with diamond shaped steel gate, signaling that it went down. We went 3 times,...

Sick of the weather hate it for being so cold. It is making me feeling so restless. I struggle to stay happy and alright. Seemingly that all the air i breathe in, feels like dust. That bad that i skipped classes today, One of the side effect of winter.

Does dream reflect the most truthful feeling of me? If it does, I didnt know the feeling was that extreme strong. I saw a total different me because of it. Full of courage, full of ways, that i can almost overcome anything. Yet.. something still didnt change, the acceptance from her. How great, its her birthday today too.

I am a happy man now, thanks to 2 beer. Fri, sat and sun doesnt work without a beer. I know i should be on diet. I am fighting a balance in between. Here to enjoy btw. Anw whatever i blog now is by a dipsy alex. Thank you, for giving me a good sunday. I woke up at 11am, went on to church with daniel taken by a mini bus. Many people went, mainly because they said "free lunch" u laughed hard. i didnt go there for that anw. People sang songs, Preaching, Sharing of story Offering prayer and etc. I am a buddhist btw, just going on to take a look on korea church. I went on a right timing. They had a table tennis tournament after that. Hahaha, table tennis, my love. They immediately dropped me for a tournament. I was taken aback but i accepted it. It was a double with another guy, a guitarist. Hold on for a minute, a guitarist playinging TT. Doesnt sounds logical, and indeed it was. To be fair, i blamed myself too for the errors. We also had some basketball game, they also had pizza...

Just a guy walking in the crowd. I appear cheerful, I show no sign of sorrow. I always want to make people laugh, I will be there if anyone needs me. But, when i am feeling down. I dont know who can i turn to. I cant seem to be able to express it out. Its going to hide inside on and on, as much as i dont want to. Self destruction, this is what happening. Again, i lay low on the coast. Looking at the sky as birds fly pass, regretful images starts to appear. I still cant believe how far apart we are now. Used to be the closest of everything. Yet now, we are just a hi-bye friend. Really 不甘心. We know we aint a good match, we know that clearly inside our heart. But, something just doesnt make sense. 人说变就变, 为什么? It just doesnt make sense, why are humans designed this way? Why cant we just be like swans? I tried to find out the result, but you just dont want to say it out. I have lost courage in asking. Its rejection after rejection. Do you know behind every question took a tonne courage. I a...

Never thought i would experience winter, Playing soccer below 0 degrees is no joke. Will the snow be here? Getting colder by days, piling with more layers, as if going for a ba zhang competition. I feel like a dragon now, blasting icy. Today was a really good day. I seldom enjoy myself this much. Pingpong with Young Kim at 11am, good footwork exercise for that. Found a new tasty toast bread place, perfect for breakfast and lunch. Took back mid term exam, had 100% - way to go! Soccer @ nam seum park for 2 hours, nice played. Dinner gathering, got to meet new people and really funny games. Someone made my day there. Bak kut teh cooked by sg girls, appreciated. Dinner with topher & daniel @ 10pm. Home sweet home @ 12am. Good day, good night :)

Flipping some old songs hiding in one corner on my desktop, Searched through some songs 5 years ago on youtube, realised that ... nothing stops. We dont want changes, but time cause changes. A 15 yr old alex would be sitting in front of the computer - listening to songs and emo over it, watch dramas, chiong maple. But now, i dont have the habit anymore. Its been 4 years and seems that the world will continue revolve while we slowly adapt to changes. Although, i still can now, but really? In another 4 years time, would we still have this childish privillege? At different stages of life, we enjoy different things. Appreciate and enjoy them rather than complaining about it, because when they are gone, again would be next life.

As the students gather, we tripped to seoraksan. Games on the bus, I was being called randomly to sing. What a luck. With rock, paper, scissors, and i was the ultimate winner again. Shortly, hwan cave was here. Walking up a steep hilll to get to our destination, but a shortcut when we railed down. Being accomodated and into groups for dinner cooking, I was a loaf sitting on the couch, while 3 china chefs was preparing. Just 3 years older than me, but was able to prepare a feast. Games again that was in korean, strangely bad. And we see ourselves ending the night, with 5 gentlemens sleeping together, budget. Rise & Shine, the glazing sun was calling upon us. a hated short bus ride brought our sleepy heads, to our finale - seoraksan. Mountains, lakes, maple leaves, i found myself blending in, this is where i truly belong, but reality is cruel. After a glance, we see ourselves bidding farewell to this place, a beautiful nature place named 3rd highest in korea. Aloha seoraksan~ Enjoyin...

Every name, there is a meaning behind it. Courage, Impulsive energy & Fervid imagination. Short and sweet, clearly explains who am i, alex.

I have faith in myself that november will be a month filled with good and tiring days ahead. Sarongsan, Busan and Seoul exploration soon. I am self declaring that i am officially on diet. I will run at least once per day to keep me going, today was a good start. Did 3km on treadmill, though isnt the best place to be on for running. My diet will only end on March 2011. Giving myself 5 months to stay away from all the food i ate, i am sick of it already, constantly telling myself that. At the end of the month, i also have to prepare for final exams. And when november ends, I will realise i am only left with another 3-5 weeks stay in korea. This is how quick it gets. So.. cherish what i have now :) Things will get simple when i am back because i get to throw off my studies for the timebeing and do interesting stuffs and get committed in things. Or maybe leaving it to pure simplicity :) Cheers to a good plan ahead and also diet plan.

Coming to an end of october, a month of fun and stress. I played and then exams these 2 weeks. Its like a marathon run after another. The last exam i had was barely 2 months ago. Well, but i had some fun. I was at jeju island for 4 days. I climbed the highest mountain, visited some tourist attractions like teddy bear museum and loveland. Also, met a huge star - kim hyun joong. Had an experience in a public bathroom (JimJilBang), where everybody go naked and bathe together in a big room with saunas inside. Something that i find it real disgusting that people share the same old towel without washing it to clean their body. Like a special tower to scrub one's body. But people at there share that, the moment was mesmerising. What a public bathroom, i am sorry if anyone has been there before too. I also stayed there overnight as they have a storey for people to sleep over on a thin mat, probably 1cm thick at most. Luckily, i stayed over in a motel one of those days there. Though they di...

A job found in korea, i am an english teacher now! Giving a 1 to 1 lesson with a staff working in the university i am studying at, i am happy with the pay :) However, with good pay, it comes with stress, its my first time being an english teacher and i have got a tough challenge here - I have a 55year old student who holds the position of secretary at hannam university. There is gonna a balance between respect and correcting. Bu Rong Yi! This week, i have been having a marathon with topher, which means a beer marathon too. At least 2 bottles per day and had 5 yesterday. God. Mon - Sat. I can feel my belly bouncing around. I hope i can find some motivation to run tml. Getting lazy when i am enjoying my time here.

A little chinese poem from Su Dong Po. Depicting something similar to my heart. 明月几时有？ 把酒问青天。 不知天上宫阙， 今夕是何年。 我欲乘风归去， 又恐琼楼玉宇， 高处不胜寒。 起舞弄清影， 何似在人间！ 转朱阁，低绮户， 照无眠。 不应有恨， 何事长向别时圆？ 人有悲欢离合， 月有阴晴圆缺， 此事古难全。 但愿人长久， 千里共婵娟。 何事长向别时圆 - 好绝的句子. Just a few simple words that all of us can read. But behind these 7 words, lies something meaningful.

A little story of my previous weekend. Out to the town of daejeon and watched a movie there along too. A terrific movie that made me talking about it these 2 days - Eat.Pray.Love. A film by julia roberts, the story is based on an inspiring real book. How troubled a person was, and decided to give its life a breather, its amazing how her life changed along the way by discovering different aspects in life. After watching this movie, it just encourages you to get out and live a story of your own and live a different life that others would not. Cheers, Good movie. I was happy to find a italian restaurant here in daejeon for dinner on that day. It isnt pricey, its about $15 for a plate of seafood risotto. I miss risotto. I also had house wine along with it hahaha. Many koreans were giving me the stare, like as i havent reach to a legal age yet. haha. I have been sticking here for more than a month now and really missing home. Felt that i have had enough here. I may be wrong, i am looking fo...

I only live once, so live it the way i like. Its 1 month in korea and i am enjoying my time here. Enjoying the freedom, especially being someone who is individualistic. Every week without fail, i will have a dinner and beer session with topher, feels like a family with him. I really felt taken care of here. Another job opportunity in korea knocked again today, a staff in hannam university needs someone to practice english with him by speaking for an hour per session. Pays about 35sgd/hr too. I hope this works out. Dont give me another false hope... Regarding the result that i have got for this semester, i am contented with it. It isnt the perfect score. Had 4As, B+ and B. Looks good anw. My overall gpa now should be just nice enough to enter universities. But i have a different option, a little dream that i want to achieve, studying a course of my interest, a subject that i wont be seeing myself sleeping in the class. Unfortunately, if i want to, i would have to travel overseas to acco...

Happiness starts with... one word. one joke. one text. one phone call. one song. one hug. one kiss. and stops in one mistake. Wanna share with my diary.. Figured out that when things goes too smooth, and when it doesnt for a little, it seems somehow bad. But thinking back, life can still go on without it. I believe i am not the only one who feels this way. Here goes the story.. I was being offered a job in korea by one of my soccer mate here. The pay is attractive, he mentioned 30,000 won per hour = $35sgd/hr. The job is to just play with little kids in kindergarten, but the criteria is that i have got to be a foreigner. So i am one, and being a kid lover, i was secretly happy in my heart.. but i gave a cool answer.. "ok cool, this sounds interesting, tell more about it." Today had a coffee session with the actual owner's daughter of the kindergarten, discussed a little on the job.. until the call came from the owner, which is her father. That was the bad thing.. after th...

Just shifting from a country to another for nearly a month and i see my life transforming, for the better :) I am touring around well with the international students and also seem to have more conversation to talk to some of my sg friends. Life is really a miracle sometimes. Some little happenings in korea for these 3 weeks. 1) On last thursday, i cluelessly walked into a female toilet. Thinking back of it, i didnt drank any alcohol or beer so i werent drunk for sure. I was just looking for a toilet quite bad. The thing was that, i was so calm. I only found out when i cant seem to find the "man cubicle". When i realised, i was like - "is this a share toilet or sth" but my senses wasnt right so i walked out briskly to check the toilet sign. Gao lat! LOL. Thinking back, why didnt they shout or scream? 2) I was shopping at Myeongdong yesterday. Spotted a nice shirt for $25 sgd, but i liked 2 colors so i asked.. "if i take 2 piece, give me discount" in korean....

Chuseok week is over, chuseok meaning the lantern festival. I had both chinese and korean mooncake, but i miss my durian snowskin one terribly. Last week was a week of fun filled and adventures. 1) Daejeon O world = Amusement park + Zoo + Flowerland + Safari. We the singaporeans went out with 2 chinese ladies from china - tingting and taozhen. Though the odds were really bad - long bus ride, cold weather of 15 degrees and raining through the day. The summary was we had fun :) The amusement park is very much alike sg's escape theme park. Many rides were closed until night due to the poor weather. We hop on to the zoo and i found that the animals here are more active than the ones in singapore. I got some nice pictures on facebook too. Oh there was an animal that made me laugh - 草泥马, it sounds alike with a vulgar phrase commonly used by the china people. Flowerland very much impressed me - they have really nice flowers and places to take some shots and they have a instrument performa...