Held back


"2 years, i can't be selfish."

Things are falling nicely into pieces, but there are somethings that I cant do. Especially after building a good relationship with someone, and have to surrender because i cant commit. 2 years, i can't be selfish. Hate it when you want to bring something to a newer level but have to control what is happening naturally. Geesh.

I dont like to throw things that I like aside, but this time, looks like I have to activate the 'stop' button.

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