Writing down my journey..

New Divide, This song coincidentally played while I reach the last few hundred meters of my 25 mins run. A sign that seems to tell me its time to get back to that slimmer shape 3 - 4 years back. Hopefully my will of losing some weight last longer this time round. Good way to start 01/01/14

Ending the year with a happy run. Every christmas & year end, some old memories would start coming back to me. Especially those during my poly times when I was active in HabboSoup. Never thought an online game radio station would give me so much memories. It was 2008 where we all gathered for christmas, 5 years have passed. Sometimes I would wonder how are they doing, hope all is well for them. I forgot how things started fading away but those times were great and thanks for the memories. I am determined to go Korea next year like how much I wanted to do it in 2011 but I didnt fulfill my wish. As I am writing this, I am pondering if visiting topher in US would be great as well. We will see. So 3 achievements to unlock in 2014. 1. Visit Korea/US 2. Get driving licence during summer break 3. Simply be happy (because life is too short to care for unnecessary stuff like dieting) Like many others, I ponder if I have achieved anything so far. I have a stable part tim...

In 1930, the New York Times printed an article uncovering certain Chinese government documents. They revealed that herbalist Li Ching-Yuen was born in 1677 and received official congratulations on this 200th birthday in 1877. However, he claimed that he was born in 1736. No matter when he was born, he died on May 6th, 1933, telling his students the he had completed all his tasks in this lifetime, and was now ready to come home. Despite his age, he constantly practiced herbalism and martial arts. When he Li was 250-years-old, Chinese army General Yang Sen invited Li to visit him and teach Chinese soldiers martial arts. Yang Sen was surprised to learn that despite Li’s age, he was still youthful. Li Ching-Yuen related his knowledge for longevity in this simple sentence: “Retain a calm heart, sit like a turtle, walk swiftly like a pigeon, and sleep like a dog.” There are other accounts of Western health prodigies and Eastern Yogis living for over 100 years. It is very easy, especially...

3 presentations done in 2 days. I should feel relieved but not certainly. Thinking I didn't do my best. A sense of guilt is being developed. There seems to be something lacking in my presentation that I used to had them when I was in poly. Have I lost the drive? Or am I demanding myself more? Previously in poly, I can confidently tell myself that I am getting the "A" but not in all 3 presentations. I felt I delivered perfectly for the first one, the 2nd & 3rd seem to have divided my enthusiasm and attention, rating myself just a B grade for these 2 presentations. I feel unjustified, lack of control with such uncertainty. However I have enjoyed my times in these 3 groups, we had some disagreements at times but they were resolved quickly. The crux is do not take such arguments personally, it creates disharmony that is non-beneficial for both party. For now, I would like to take a little rest of 2 hours. I have been tirelessly working on projects over the...

Yiruma reminds me of Korea. I played them regularly. The last time I studied in school was my exchange in Korea. The amount of fun that an exchange student get to enjoy while studying is incomparable. Really wanna re-visit that place again. Next week - 4 Final Presentations and 1 Essay submission. I need strength, please make me a saint just for a week. 会过去的. Anyway I realised I have changed, for the better. The old me was really aggressive and assertive in terms of projects. Usually I would want things to go my way and if it doesn't . For eg. deadlines I set for my group members are not met or the quality is insufficient, I would flare up easily. However, I am in control of my emotions now. Grateful to Sheryl who indirectly taught me there are much more important things in life. We shouldn't be angry over meaningless things. I feel ashamed and guilty for my past behaviors to my previous groupmates. I am sorry.

Slowly as weeks progress, I have come to realize I am on my 10th week of school. Time just seem to pass really fast. In 2 weeks, I will be picturing a blood bath week. 3 - 4 major presentations, 1 essay due that week. I need strength. From week 1 to now week 10, I see a transformation. From complaining to conforming. I have slowly adapted, more comfortable with my groupmates also. Things will just get better from here :) Got complimented by one of my prof on my presentation skills as well, I felt flattered but its always good to receive compliments from profs. Some nostalgia feeling when I entered Coffee Bean today, heard the radio playing - too little too late. A song from 2006/2007. It was classic because it was one of the popular songs that I played on Habbosoup Radio when I just joined them. A place where I picked up self confidence and communication skills.

Life should be this peaceful yet interesting. I am sick of being a typical product of this world. I hated how society pressure, made me once assertive and aggressive. Week 6 of school has ended, I am progressing pretty fine. Handling the workload and stress well :) To make things more complicated, (the usual me) I have added a dog to the addition. She was really obedient last night, no barking from 11pm till 5.30am. Until my mum walked into the kitchen at 5.30am, she started barking. I was awakened also, hurried to check. My parents kept telling me she is hungry but i thot she wanted to shit. Still went on to prepare some food for her still. Midway preparing, she really pooped! Went back to sleep till 7.30, She started her bark again, must be sth wrong. She pee-ed but not in pee tray. Her legs got stained by it too. I let her out to play soon, she pooped again lol, but went back to eat her shit. After that went on to lick my dad LOL. She really brought some joy, but think there goe...